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Hey Girls, Thanks for being so supportive! I was definitely embarrassed bc I fell into the trap of excitement and all my hopes come crashing down. I am honestly so happy to have you girls. I don't know how you've been able to stay so strong for so long. I am absolutely convinced there is something wrong that we just don't see. I will be calling my RE and demanding a plan of attack. I know my insurance requires one more IUI (#7) before I can do IVF. I know i'm lucky my insurance is covering this so far. But i'm ready to get to IVF, i'm most certain that is were I will find my answers. On paper, i am a perfect patient, I have no explanation for my infertility. I am a healthy 26 year old. I don't smoke, I eat right, i'm not over weight. I think I have some bad eggs, but can't be certain until the egg retrieval during IVF.

Stillfuntrying: (I loved that you wrote a 'warning' disclosure - it made me smile). I've had both the dye test and the Hysteroscopy. They were both painful, but were rather quick. I closed my eyes during both, so I didn't get to see the screen. :( The dye test was easier of the two. Like MelC said, as soon as its done, your immediately better, it only lasts a min or so. You will be fine. Just take an Ibuprofen before.

Alright, sorry for my negative rant earlier. Obviously AF came and I was overwhelmed. I feel a bit better now. What a rollar coaster!

Mel c- how are you feeling today?

Sugar baby : where are you? Hope Everything is ok. How did the sa go?

Northern baby : Let us know if your doing ici... I would like to know what that is like.

Stillfuntring: It sounds like by you cm that you may o. I haven't been temping so i can't judge based on that.

Jmcandrew: I'm so sorry that your IUIs have not worked . That is great that your Insurance will cover your IVF after 7 IUIs. We are paying OOP for everything and that leaves IVF completely out of the picture. I hope that whatever decision you make you get your BFP!

Afm: I'm doing ok. I'm really back and forth on doing another cycle. A part of me thinks I know I can get pregnant now so I should push forward and continue on but we only really have enough in savings for one more try and it would be a while before we could do more. The other part of me thinks I don't want to go through all this again. What if I m/c again? What if I get another bfn? I just wonder if I should stop and save what i have and continue saving up for adoption where there is more of a guarantee. I knw a lot of these feelings are because AF should be here anytime and I'm hating her more then ever this time around but ugh! It's so confusing. Dh says he's a 100% with me whatever I choose. I hate the feeling of giving up and I hate the feeling of continuing on with no Results.

Oh melC! What are we going to do!?... This is so unfair! All we want to start a family. I'm happy to hear you are open to adoption. I'm not at that point yet. As angry, and tired as I am, I refuse to accept it. If IVF doesn't work, maybe then. Maybe. I asked my DH how he would feel if I did have a problem, and I couln't get pregnant, he said I would be like him... Lol. I'm so happy to have my DH. Any man could father a child, but it takes a real man to step up to the plate like he is. Its awful that this bean didnt stick, but I'm so glad to hear how supportive you DH is. And i can very much relate to how you feel. I wish iui's had a higher success rate. The 15-20% is nothing!!! No wonder I'm not pregnant yet.

Oh girls wat a shity cycle this has been for all of us!
An up side to the day... My BFF had a baby girl this morning im so happy i have almost forgotten about my problems for a second, i cant wait to see her, it will be another month or so until i go to town next but i cant wait!!!! She didnt even have any pain meds, what a trooper!

Well, our SA showed no sperm al all. Not a single one! This is one of the times I was hoping I wasn't going to be right. We are going to make an appt with a different urologist now that specializes in male infertility and works with the fertility clinic here. My poor fiancé kept telling me that he wouldn't be angry if I wanted out of the relationship and that I could have a clean break. Poor baby, the news wasn't a surprise since we had done numerous home tests but we were hoping that the vitamins and supplements would have helped a little. I had to make it very clear to him that there was no point in me existing without him and there is no chance I would ever leave him for any reason in the world. So now he jokes about wanting to clone me. I'm hoping to be able to make a appt for next Friday with the new doc.

I keep hoping and praying that all of us get our Soon. I have to believe in miracles. Life can't be so unfair to do this to us but my Dad used to tell me that I would never get thrown something that I couldn't handle and I would overcome and obstacle in my way. This shouldn't be any different.

GIRLS, I NEED YOU MORE THEN EVER!!

just got back from my RE, and got some worse news. my genetic test came back, and I'm positive for carrying the gene 'fragile X' (which i could pass along mental retardation and down syndrom!) and a sign of this is fragile X-associated primary ovarian insufficiency (FXPOI) (my infertility). I have to go to my parents house tomorrow, and tell my family and my siblings to go get tested, to make sure they too don't have it! Stupid Irish luck!

So our plan of attack is, i need to do another IUI - even though we all know it's going to fail - in order to do IVF. The only luck i can pull from this is that I at least get the opportunity to do IVF (even if our insurance only covers it once) and during that process they can only choose the eggs with no fragile X gene.

So please ladies, help me through this. And please go get tested your selves... I knew something was wrong before, and now I know for sure...

jmcandrew...I'm so sorry to hear that! At least when they do IVF they can pick the healthy ones to implant. I really hope that it works the first time since you will be ensured that they are the best embryos being implanted in your uterus.

Jmcandrew: I am so very sorry to hear about your blood test results. I wish I knew what to say to make you feel better. It seems that this forum has received nothing but bad news after bald news. I only hope that that means we will all have great news soon. I'm sorry you have to go through another IUI knowing all these things. The good news is now you know and with IVF they will be able to make sure that it's not passed on and give you a beautiful healthy baby. Please don't let this keep you down. I hope that things get easier for you soon!

Sugarbearttc: I'm so sorry you and your Dh are going through this right now. I was really hoping that your results would be different. It sounds like you and your Dh have a wonderful relationship though and I know you two will get through this. I hope that the male infertility specialist has some good news for you! I 100% agree with your dad. We all only get what we can handle. We will all get through this.

Stillfuntryin: that's great your BFF had her baby. I hope when I have mine I can get through without all the meds lol!

WOW, i feel like it's my turn for bad news but i have none yet!, Im so sorry girls, It must really suck! I know my partner wouldnt use donor sperm so if we get that outcome im screwed! I find it so amazing that you ladies can share such personal things with complete strangers and find comfort in it! somtimes a complete stranger is better than a close friend because they are just there to listen and not give you there opinion (which drives me batty sometimes),
Sugarbear- you have probably allready told us but is there a reason why your DH has no sperm? did he have cancer like the other girls partners?
Jmcandrew- Im sure that IVF will bring you an amazing miracle and i know that another round of IUI is going to drain you but at least it's not 5 IUI's to go only 1 and im sure that you are strong enough to get through it, I would be an emotional wreck by now if i was you guys you are truely inspiring women and nobody can take that away from you!
MelC- Has the witch showed yet? Are you late? They say after you have been preg is the best time to conceive so hopfully all you needed was this 1 bean and BAM next time will be that last!

XOXOXO Liz