Community post

Frsty hang in there girl, you sound like your in exactly the same place as i was 2 weeks ago, I had spotting for a few days and very down, thing is if your AF is not actually due yet and there still isn't bright red blood it could be implantation, especially if you use a pad/tampon and theres hardly anything on it, try to stay calm as this could be the worst time to get stressed, Im thinking of you and wishing lots of
Dh sperm test is not til 11th April by the way, I know 2 months for a sperm test is a joke grr
Mandy whoop whoop, well done you for never giving up, so pleased for you both and may you have a very happy n healthy 9 months, about time we got a on here, would be great if we got a few more (Phat, 2Frsty, Lauren) wonderful start to the day yay, upload a test if you can and get time

Pinkster--> So are they going to have to redo the test, or do you go in on the 11th for the results of the 1st test?

Mandy, I seriously can't contain my excitement for you! And to know the sex from the very get go -- Perfection!!

AFM: Unfortunately, has shown up. Woke overnight (Bubby has the same horrible chest cold that I have) to bright red flow. Y'all. I was seriously crushed. More so than I have been in over a decade at least. As the night has worn on (and my hormones have leveled off) I've come to terms with it more, but it still hurts so bad I can't stand it. Matt and I had the discussion before we did this IUI, and he told me that if this failed we'd probably need to come to terms with the fact that John would be our only child. My first injectable cycle my luteal phase was 10 days long, and this one my LP was only 9 days. So while my body is responding super well to the Follistim to mature my follies, the Follistim/Ovidrel trigger shot has created a Luteal Phase Defect. With a LP under 10 days, any fertilized embryos we've created won't have time to implant before my body is already shedding my uterine lining. I don't know what else to do. We don't have the money for another IUI, and with DH's semen volume, I doubt that we'll be able to conceive without one. And if we don't have the funds for an IUI, we sure as hell don't have them for IVF which is our best bet. SO while my emotions are leveling out, I'm still very sad. This was sorta like our "Hail Mary" last ditch effort to have a baby. And it failed. My body failed us. And since we're still in IL (and AF started almost 5 days early), I'd miss my chance to start the next cycle, even if I wanted to do another intercourse cycle. Which at this point, I don't. I seriously believe that I'm done with TTC. At least for a while. I'll be 35 next year, which will bring with it more risks (added to our increased risk of having an autistic baby), and at this point I just don't know if I'm willing to take those risks.

Aww Frsty, I completely understand and know how you feel, (well we all do), its so frustrating and devastating at times, take some time out and then rethink with your DH, you may be able to come up with money later, there may be a way to lengthen your Luteal phase, just wait and see how you feel in a few days hun, Im so sorry, the last try for me has done me in still now and my heart is not in it this cycle but Im still trying at least and where theres a will theres a way and still some hope, no matter how small, Im 46 in May my OH 55 and even though yes there will be health risks I still am not ready to give up just yet and we have been trying on and off for over 2yrs, best wishes n hugs -x-
Oh they lost dh sample so hes going in for another one and they testing it there and then

2Frsty - I'm sorry.

No + here. FF says I'm 7dpo. I think I'm 11dpo. Could be somewhere in between. Trying to stay +. My mom is coming April 1, and she doesn't know we're TTC. I would be vomiting while she's here if it's +, so either way I feel okay with the outcome right now.

Hang in there, ladies!!

So, today is CD23. Just went to the restroom, and there was pink blood when I wiped. Guess we'll see what happens, but I expect it to be my period.

Sorry phat hope theres still a chance for you -x-

Morning ladies!
@phat-

@2rsty- I'm so sorry af showed honey. It's so not fair! What is your doctor saying about your short LP? What dose of progesterone does he have you on? I just ask that because I know many doctors automatically prescribe progesterone during treatments. I'm sorry you're feeling beat down. Hard not to when you have the carpet pulled out from beneath you repeatedly. As I said, it's just not fair hugging you from st louis.

@laureninlove- Hi lauren!!! I cant count how many times I ran into dollar tree and grabbed a test. Being only $1...it's so hard to pass up lol. I hope you get your bfp soon! I'm sorry you lost your angel baby honey . That's a pain I'd never wish on even an enemy.

@pinkster- Come on, April!!!! Pinkster's man needs to get his sample making on!

@xomandy-
I'm so freaking excited for you, I can't quit dancing!!!!!!!!

AFM- Another birth control AF is here. Feels like they are back to back these days. Besides that...nothing new with me. I'm boring right now LOL

Hahahaha Waiting that message is def not boring and you never are, thanks for the chuckle

Hallo Ladies!

Mandy - CONGRATULATIONS! I am soooo excited for you!

Girls, hang in there all of you! I found some beautiful thoughts on the Internet a few days ago, I will share it with you, maybe it helps:

What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?..

Couples experiencing infertility often receive well-meaning but extremely insensitive "advice." We can all list the most popular ones: "Just relax and you'll get pregnant," or "adopt and you'll get pregnant," or "things happen for a reason", of the most painful from those who think they've got the goods on God's plan, "Maybe God never meant for you to have children." The sheer audacity of making a statement like that never fails to amaze me.

"These same people would never walk up to someone seeking treatment for cancer and say, "Maybe God never meant for you to live." However, because I am infertile, I'm supposed to get on with my life. It's hard to understand that people can not see infertility for what it is, a disease for which I have to seek treatment. What if Jonas Salk had said to the parents of polio victims, "Maybe God meant for thousands of our children to be cripples, live in an iron lung or die." What if he'd never tried to find a cure? Who could think for one minute that that was God's plan?

"What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?

"I think he meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure for infertility.

"No, God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let him down.

"Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God has singled me out for a special treatment. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

"While I would never choose infertility, I can not deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy that awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when he handed me infertility. I already know."

AFM, i am going today to the insurance Company so Keep your fingers crossed for me that i get the 50% for IVF. Unfortunatelly we have to pay alone for ICSI/IMSI and for the freezing but i really don't care. I will probably start next cycle day 23 and then i may have the Transfer in May.

Wish you all Ladies a great day!

No additional bleeding. Started progesterone suppositories last night to help if it was implantation and to possibly lengthen my cycle a little if it wasn't. I'll keep you all updated!