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Dang....refinancing is confusing! On day 3 of progesterone and I have 3 new pimples on my face (1 per day maybe? lol) I'm feeling better. I wrote my last post at 11:30 at night while laying in bed. I feel asleep and dh woke up at 2:30 in panic mode thinking he heard the doorbell and someone was breaking into our house. He grabbed the taser and like a half asleep ninja, he tiptoed through the house. I, sitting in bed with a heart pounding adrenaline rush, held my phone ready to call 911. He came back into the bedroom and said the cat knew something was up cause he ran past him and to the front door. And cocked my head at him and said, "honey, the cat is right here next to me passed out cold."
Turns out the "doorbell" was all in his head (which I understand cause I've woken up to glass breaking but no broken glass...weird). Anyways, he did a facepalm and said he was losing his mind and went back to bed....leaving me sitting in bed dumbfounded and still in panic mode. I tried to go back to sleep but kinda hard to with one eye open lol. But here I am 2 days later, moving forward. Granted it hit me like a ton of bricks when I realized it was the 26th (due date of my 3rd angel). Where is the time going? It sucks that with infertility you lose time. It feels like February 2012 was just yesterday! As hard as it is to concentrate on stuff other than babies, I have to force myself to keep living my life to the fullest and be happy in THIS moment until God blesses us, cause those are 3 years that I cant get back. Yet, I wouldnt do anything different cause that would mean I wouldnt have all my angel babies waiting for me in heaven...does that make sense? I love how I say this but I know that everything I do and every decision I make will still involve ttc lol. For example, we are refinancing our home loan and my first thought was, 'OH yea! We can use the saving towards the RE!"

@astrid- Hi sweetie! Welcome! Wow....Germany? That's amazing. I love that we have girls from all over the world! I'm sorry you've been fighting this battle and sorry you lost your angel baby. It's one of the hardest things a woman could go through. But I'm so glad you found this forum cause now you have a group of cheerleaders that got your back . I thought I was the only one that thought sneezing may be a symptom LOL! I'd sneeze or get a pain in my foot and be like, "Is that a symptom!!!" and google it lol. Yep...we're crazy .

@xomandy- I hate/love how our lives revolve around our cycle days and treatments. No one understands when you tell them you may not be able to travel out of town that weekend cause it may wind up being IUI day. It's like, I'm not going to spend hundreds of dollars on fertility treatments to just cancel it so I can see you for 12 hours. It sounds selfish but sometimes we have to be. lol Oh and vice versa...the strength that I have that in turn strengthens you, restrengthens me. IT'S A FREAKISHLY AWESOME CIRCLE!!!

@jace's mama- You've got this honey! . As hard as it gets and as emotional of a roller coaster as it may be....it'll be completely worth it! And those moments that you feel you have no strength left.... "But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
My strength is God is what has given me strength over these past 3 years .If not for Him....I would have been a straight jacket a long time ago ROFL!

Thank you Tara. The fact that that made me cry made me realize how much I needed to hear that. You've helped me way more than you know, and you still continue to. The strength that we share with each other means so much. On days that I feel weak, your alls strength helps me.. and on days y'all are feeling weak I hope my strength helps you as well. If not for this group Im not sure exactly where I'd be at in life right now, I just know I'm extremely grateful for finding this forum when I did and was able to renew my strength in God as well as in myself.
Glad to read you didn't have to call 911! I've had dreams like that and wake up freaking out knowing it was real.. thankfully they weren't, but you sure as heck can't go back to sleep lol.

7dpo already Mandy, I'm so excited for you! Only 1 more week to go :-)

Astrid, where in Germany are you from? I was born in Augsburg on an army base.. came back to the states before I turned 1 so I don't remember any of it but my sisters do. From all the pictures we've got it was beautiful!!

@jace's mama- Believe me when I say that you reaching out to me was PERFECT TIMING! No coincidence there! One day, we'll all have a great testimony!!!!

Bed time for this gal! Been up since before 5am running nonstop. Took care of my 3yr old nephew from 6am-5pm (during which I had to clean the kitchen wall 3 times cause he made his spoon a personal helicopter blade and got oatmeal and mangoes EVERYWHERE lol), came home, pulled weeds from the flower beds, showered, made salmon and kale for dinner, packed lunches, then submitted all our refinance paperwork and I've got to be up before 5 again!.... where the heck is my pillow!!! LOL One thing to look forward to...THANK GRIMM IT'S FRIDAY! lol

Oh ...xomandy...saw this and reminded me of what you said lol!

Thanks Ladies for all your Kind words...

To make things even more interesting I am actually born and raised in Romania but i live for many years in München, Germany.. so not so far from Augsburg Jace's Mama!

@xomandy - every month i am looking for symptoms that are different form the months before... i usually find lots!!! Ha ha ha! I am obviously every month pregnant! :))))))
Yes, it is very hard to stay positive but my faith is still strong and i will never give up. I am like a broken panzer moving only Forward.

My doctor said that next month we begin a stronger stimulation for my ovaries and if this doesn't work then i will probably have to have my fallopian tubes checked out. Yeey - NOT! But we have to do what we have to do, right?

I am 11DPO today and i just had to make a HPT... BFN of course, but until i see red i Keep my hopes high!

Lots of Baby dust Ladies!

Hello ladies. I had my first appointment yesterday. I'm so happy to report that the baby is doing wonderful, healthy, and heartbeat sounds perfect as the nurse put it. When I seen my child on the monitor, the baby was jumping around everywhere. I'm also not as far along as I thought. I'm actually 11 weeks and 5 days today. My OB is a bit concerned about my losing 22 pounds, so she gave me something to help stop vomiting. I had to get a pap since I haven't had one in a while. She wants me to go back next week to make sure I'm not dropping anymore weight and my next ultrasound is on April 30th. I don't know if you guys would like to see my ultrasound pic or not.

Tara, you are so strong and I have much hope for you. I think you'll get your miracle soon.

Astrid, so nice to have you join us.

Baby dust to all you ladies!

Wow enbutler!! How amazing :-) reading this has renewed my spirit! I've been so wore out mentally that I've been thinking about taking a break, but seeing your success story renewed that part of me that doesn't want to wait any longer! I know what I want, and I don't wanna wait. I'm so happy for you! I remember seeing Jace for the first time, and hearing his heartbeat, what a miracle it is!! I'd love to see pictures, I'm amazed with God's blessings..He is good, and ours will come when His time is right. And right now is your time, enjoy every single second because time flies so fast!!

So much to do and zero energy to do it! Our furniture is coming next week so I need to get the floors vaccuumed and clear stuff out ta the way.. but first I gotta find an extension cord that'll reach that far since we won't have power until next week. Trying to make a list of all the necessities we still need to get, but I'm just drawing a blank. The last few nights have been so restless, ive been having to drink nyquil just to be able to fall asleep then wake up so groggy like I haven't slept at all. I'm really hoping tonight goes a little better.

Enbutler, YES I want to see a pic :-) That is amazing news. Glad they gave you something for the sickness. I still remember my very first sonogram with my daughter and that was 16 years ago. Man I can't wait for that day again.

Jace's, I bet you can't wait until the move is over! I was so glad when I was finally able to sit back and kick my feet and admire it!

http://rs68.pbsrc.com/albums/i14/hayindream/Mobile%20Uploads/20150326_141530-1.jpg~320x480

AWHHHHHHHHHH I just love it!!! So happy for you. Look at that little thing :-)

Awww!! There's your little peanut! :-) what a miracle! It amazes me how fast they go from looking like a little alien to a miniature baby. I love our amazing blessings we get to see and experience.

And Mandy I am SO ready to be in my house! Where I can run around naked if I want or at least have sex without worrying who's gonna hear us LOL!!