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@lisserb congrats!!!!!

I however got AF showed last night, I'm ecstatically happy since now I totally feel less crazy. I started having the worst pain, this morning there it was. I much rather have AF show up when it needs to so I can get back to the planning. But this week will be vacation week, so all is good =)

I'm sorry for everyone on here who are ttc it's no easy thing to go through. I've been trying to have another baby for 13 almost 14 yrs so I can really sympathize with every one of you. I know it can get discouraging and frustrating but just try and keep hope if it's meant to be it will happen. I've had to come to terms with it long ago and still till this day I still have some kind of hope that it'll happen if God allows it.

I've said this before but I am so very grateful to have found this little group of people who know what I'm going through and have people I can talk to about how I feel without them judging me. Just here recently I started to chat on here because I thought I was pregnant I had so many symptoms and still are having some but both HPT were neg and so was my blood test which were very discouraging. I thought o maybe it was finally my time to become a mom again I was so happy ahh finally after all these many yrs of trying maybe just maybe it was my time. Being a woman it and was my "job" to be a mom that's all I wanted for as long as I could remember, I love being a mom to my son I couldn't ask for more ! Children are my life if I could I'd have as many as God blessed me with so when I found out 6 yrs ago about my PCOS I was devastated I never knew that was why after yrs of trying to have another child why I couldn't. Back in 2011 I had a 13lb tumor on my left ovary so my ovary and tube had to be removed and I fell into a deep depression I thought my chances of having more children were over I felt like I was less of a woman because I couldn't give my Fiance any children because he has none and being with me he will never have any but he has been so understanding and is still here with me almost 3 yrs. later he is such a blessing ! So when we thought I was pregnant this time he was sooo excited then to find out I wasn't was so upsetting because I have a massive cyst on my right ovary and once that is removed then that is it for us having children yes I know there is adoption but it's just not the same thing.

He swears that there is still hope for us he tells me all the time that he thinks I could be pregnant but when all the tests say NEG then neg is neg which means not pregnant but I'm not so sure either I didn't find out I was pregnant with my son till I was 9 weeks and even then the test was very very faint. I wouldn't give it another thought if I still wasn't having symptoms so who knows yea it could be all in my head or my hormones messing with me but 35,36 DPO and still having the same symptoms I had a week after ovulation so I don't know. So there is my story I want to wish everyone on here luck and always remember to keep your head and please keep hope! I want to thank everyone on here for just listening to me and being here for me when I needed someone to talk to. Love you all !! I'll still check in time to time to see how everyone is. Love, Mandi

Mandi - we love you, too. I hope you're just going to get a late BFP. I really do.

@ phatgurl ty me too but I don't expect it I'm just out of the race so to speak unless the Dr's can remove the cyst without having to remove my ovary but I think it's pretty far gone.

@MNJ2711 here's a maybe crazy thought, can they retrieve eggs from the ovary still? in which case get try surrogacy. At least that's my plan, if I can't get pregnant myself, fall on surrogacy last resort adoption. Or just becoming a mom to more cats.

happy positive vibes send your way. Just breathe and everything happens for a reason, more than anything I want to be a mom, but I've also accepted its ok if it doesn't happen (I haven't been trying as long as you) :)

Hi ladies! I hope everyone had a good holiday weekend! I am exhausted. My "fertile" time was supposed to be this weekend. I've been using OPK every day and I've gotten positives every day since thursday. ??? No temperature spike. (check my chart out) I am more frustrated than ever. I had sharp pains in my left side on friday intermittently and some dull ache. I thought that would mean I was ovulating. But no temp spike. No other feelings either. My cervix has been high and open and medium soft for a couple of days. But my CM is cloudy/white and creamy. I never see clear EWM. I can't remember the last time I had EWM. I never do anymore. I remember getting it in my 20's!
So anyone have any advice on what my cycle may be doing. I don't even know if I have ovulated. Why is this so difficult? Tara- sorry to hear about your chemical. You'd think there would be some silver lining! I don't know how you keep trucking along. You are such a strong woman. I underdstand about your feelings at your reunion. I had friends over this weekend for a picnic and everyone has kids so it was baby galore. My one friend is preggers and she is STILL smoking. I don't understand it, I'm not only one who says it's not the best things to do (I don't press the issue though) and everyone says, "oh it's not that bad. All our mothers smoked with us" AND the point is???????? They used to drink and take medications back in the day and that's turned out so well. What the heck do people think?
Lisserb - CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What a bright ray of happiness on this forum! Thank goodness the stork is still delivering :)
Well thanks for letting me ramble. If anyone has any thoughts for me, they are much appreciated. Take care!

Hi ladies, thought i'd pop by and say hello.

I had a baby dream last night. Ugh still no sign of AF, nipples are sensitive and a bit sore, dull cramps here and there like AF might come, but nothing. I'm sure it's nothing. Anyways, hows everyone else??

AF has been a monster. Tons of blood from aspirin but the good part is limited cramping from the aspirin thinning the blood...less clots. It's slowing down. I called the dr and left a message letting them know what happened. Waiting for a reply. So not much going on here. Been gone all weekend so I'm finally able to get some stuff done around the house...laundry, bills, vacuuming, mopping, got chicken tacos in the crockpot...

Looking forward to when dh gets home from work. After being with him for a 3 day weekend...I miss him !

@riversong- I feel the same way sometimes. It sucks when AF arrives but you feel more like your normal self finally! At least til the next TWW!

@MNJ- When you seeing the dr?

@kristi- WEIRD! I do know that PCOSers can have a lot of + opks cause LH is naturally higher than FSH. You may need to call the dr and schedule an ultrasound to see if the egg is ready to pop or if LH is acting up. I had a +opk 2 cycles ago but it was false and my egg was no where near ready. Sometimes fertility meds can cause early false +opks.

Tara- really? I had heard that clomid can give false positives! What boggles me then is how the heck is this helping me then??? How is this any better than when I don't take it? I still don't know what the heck is going on with my body. Ugh. I haven't been diagnosed with PCOS. Just infertility thus far. I wonder if the doc would do an ultrasound. It seems like they are just la-dee-dahing. They tell me to be patient that it is a process to figure out the infertility. I had called before that I wanted my hormones level checked and they wouldn't.
Hopefully your heavy period is short lived. I hate when my flow is heavy. I feel like I can't move without utter embarassment! I don't think I could use the soft cups for my period. They don't stay in place too well for me after we BD. I still ooze out, yuck!!!

Boy oh boy, i'm so ready for this day to be over with. I need a new job...already. Just started this on 6/17/13 and ready to go..lol

That's horrible i know. I work at home, but now i'm stuck in the house 5 days a week and don't get to do anything. Only bright side is, it keeps me from spending money