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@jojojo- My doctor said the same thing about my lining. I just cant get a good egg apparently...stupid PCOS !!!

I need cheering up. I'm having a dark day. The day started out great! Watched church online from other campus since our campus was closed from the tornado. Had some very steamy sex with dh , and went to my parents for sunday dinner. Well, my sister and I were playing with my nephew, when she paused and looked at me with such love and affection and said, "Have...you guys...starting talking about...having a baby soon?"
My heart sank all the way down to my butt! I could have crapped my heart out if I wanted to(sorry needed to laugh lol) . I drew a blank...I had no clue what to say. I remember giving a very long, "Uuuummmmmmmmmmm....". Then just laughed and said, ''It's June, we've reached the 3 year deadline we gave dh's mom. I guess whenever God wants me to get knocked up". I left it at that and changed the subject. I got depressed after that. Then, at the dinner table, my brother in law leaned over and put his ear to my sister's back. He said, "I hear a baby". I shot him a look. He was like I really hear one, I'm telling you there's one in there. He was just being a dork cause that's his way of letting everyone know he wants another kid. It can be very annoying to someone who is infertile! I wanted to throw my pizza at him! I'm so happy to be home but the whole way home all I wanted to do was cry . But I couldnt, it's like the tears wont come. It's a horrible feeling. I have emotions that I cant get out. All I can think to do is SCREAM!!!!!!!

@waiting : I'm sorry you're having a dark day :-( .... I hope tomorrow is a brighter one for you. I completely agree about family etc asking "when are you having a baby?" Etc. it's so hard because it catches you off guard, and you get annoyed because they "don't get" how you feel. I try to remember that they do the best they can, but sometimes it just gets too much. Especially when you are dealing with raging hormones!!!
Sending you much love from Oz xx

@tara - you should see my so's family .they are all like when are you gonna give us a baby to play with , my mom has this complex that she doesn't think it will happen and continues to share that with me every time we talk ( wtf she isn't psychic btw) my family was there at the hospital with me through my d&cs so they keep their mouth shut .sometimes I wish I would have told everyone about my losses .so they would all shut up .but then you get the strange family member coming up " hey I heard about your miscarriage !" Are you okay?" Are you gonna try again?" Yes people are so insensitive and stupid sometimes .Im In Ga .so some of my family is a little trashy and just dgas what they say .hope your day gets better :) just know your not alone

Tara I hope your day was better. I'm sorry yesterday was so rotten. I hate when people ask me that.

Afm earlier today I had some pink spotting

So after I had the pink spotting, I went to the bathroom again and had a brown blob then I just went and nothing

Where is everybody???

I got on here to put my temp in and just realized I forgot to temp! Dh is slacking! He's supposed to remind me....
Ok just texted dh to tell him he's laying down on the job. He replied, "I'm sorry I didnt realize you had to start again". You'd think by now he'd know that I have to temp every morning. Granted not a huge deal if I miss a day before or after OV but come on...he didnt know I've been temping since the m/c. I guess he just doesnt hear the beeping.

Called my doctor yesterday. She's on vacation til later this week. But the nurse didnt know if I should have an ultrasound or when to restart my dexamethasone. So I'll hear back from her later. I'm not sure when I'll ovulate on femara but if it's like clomid, I'll OV about cd 20. Next thursday (day after my 27th birthday ) is cd 18! So perfect day for ultrasound! Except they are booked and it's the ONLY day I have available. Either they have to fit me in or I'm just not going to get an ultrasound this time.

@athena- Anymore spotting....? Sorry I wasnt on yesterday. I had my nephew over at my house again and it was run run run. But so much fun! I'm sure you saw the video. I went to a nearby resale shop with him and found the perfect toy for him that he can walk/play with for only $3.99! Heck yea! Spent the day with him doing all kinds of stuff. Let him pretend to drive the riding lawn mower (dont worry it wasnt on ), took him for a walk, saw a hot air balloon over my house. It was the perfect day! But...I'm always reminded at the end of the day, when he sees my sister and covers her in kisses, that I'm still missing that relationship with a baby of my own. **sigh**

@nicky- I'm glad I havent told my family we are trying. Otherwise I would have to deal with that. When I told them about my 1st mc before we started trying...my family acted like it was no big deal. My mom instantly made it about my sister. Her first words were, "well at least, you can actually get pregnant, your poor sister may not be able to. So dont be hard on her!" I was never more mad than I was at that moment. And my sister got knocked up 3 months after she started ttc. Still miffs me thinking about it.

No Tara no more. I did a cm check earlier and it was all clear. I had my nieces all day yesterday and actually watched the baby in the morning, he is so precious. I posted a pic of the 3 yr old napping cause she was so sweet. We've been taking them to vbs at church and apparently she cried for me almost the whole time. I love those kids so much, oh and my nephew gave me a few smiles :) I went to get a shower and told them to stay on my bed and watch tv, and told the 11 yr old if the 3 yr old got off of it to tel me. When I came out of the bathroom they both scream Pennie (our cat) killed a spider. I said ok that's fine. I didn't have to kill it lol

HAHAHAH! Wish my cat would do that!

Both our cats take care of bugs. The dog even gets in on it and eats them, yuck.