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@E_Massey I’m sorry for you loss. wishing you hope in the midst of sorrow, comfort in the midst of pain.

Not sure of actual O day. Got a positive digital cd 12, pm time. The last few months I've felt O discomfort and pain cd 13 at nighttime, but didnt really feel anything last night. So covered my bases for today. Hopefully his swimmers have had time to reproduce the last few days. Pretty sure O was yesterday or Today for sure.

Dragonfly It is such a blessing to have people around that can help with the kids! This is always my biggest worry if I ever have a child. My mom lives in Crete is an island 8 hours away from Athens and hubby’s parents lives in Russia. You’re so lucky and it’s so nice of them that they will take care of your little ones so you can enjoy your date night!

Mill yes I get it! I’m like this with testing.. getting super obsessive to the point I can test 10 times a day so I quit testing. This ttc can take our minds right?
Fingers crossed babe that in a few days you’ll get your bfp!

Shay hi girl! I’m so glad to see you and reading that you and baby boy both doing great! I can understand your husband being sad since this is a very exciting part of your life but I think on Friday he will be over the moon about his future son!!!
Thank you for your kind words. I get this a lot about me being strong but tbh there’s nothing else I can do. I cannot just switch off my desire for a child even though I tried believe me. Anyone who’s been in my shoes will confirm that hope is always there so I better share it with someone like you guys than pretending that I don’t really want kids like many ladies who cannot have like me. So if I’m being really honest I’m not strong at all.. I’m very weak and many times I’m so depressed and bitter... but... I have no other choice. I cannot have kids but I cannot stop trying because it’s in my mind anyways. Till I hit menopause I will always wonder every cycle maybe if....

As for now I’m 4 dpo and I had a temp dip very unlike for me but who knows everything else is very normal!

@E I so sorry mama. I love the name Jo. They are heaven cheering you on. Pray that you will get that rainbow baby soon.

@mil I am very excited for you. I have all fingers crossed for you.

@Draginfly for you too. With husband cooperation.

@Alex yes you are really strong. You keep going no matter what. I am staying optimistic for you too. Currently ,I don t go out shopping anymore. Toddler and I stay at home. People are forgetting about all the rules.

@Shay so nice to hear from you. Congratulations on your boy. Next time, maybe Skype live with husband so he can see everything. I did that for 7w ultrasound. 20 weeks wow. Halfway there.

@Luana hopefully this cycle will be yours as well.

AFM Nothing much to say. Still looking for a new job. Still teaching . Still really tired but morning sickness is like a wave. Some days I have it so rough I barely. Others days it is manageable. I take ginger ale and some ginger tea. They help a bit. Family is really supportive. 1st trimester full checkup will be in 4weeks. I am getting super excited to see and hear baby again. I talk to her everyday. I think it s agirl but I could be wrong :-).

Lalou it will be so great to have a girl so your boy can have a baby sister! I have an older brother and I couldn’t be more grateful. I always feel like I have someone to take care of me that is also close in age to me so he can understand me more easily!

Dragonfly I’m so sorry girl about hubby is having second thoughts again. This must be so nerve racking for you. Hopefully he’ll change his mind soon. Maybe you should tell him how difficult it is for you and your physiology to make you hope and then take it away. I’m sure you guys will figure this out!

Luana I’m sorry never done it so I cannot give any help! But I’m sure if you make a board here on the forum about it, there will be definitely some helpful answers.

Punk if you can hold and not test it will save you so much emotional ups and downs since before missed AF it could give you a false negative. I would suggest to wait it out if you have the power! Having everything crossed for you!

K+Nmomma happy to see that both you and your hubby are staying active and healthy! Good luck on this cycle! Hopefully you have your bfp!

E I’m glad to see that you’re back and you’re optimistic! I’ve seen too many ladies after a miscarriage getting pregnant right away and hopefully this will be the case for you too!!

AFM I’m 6dpo and still nothing out of my ordinary. Just hoping as usual...

Punk sorry you didn’t get any lines girl! Hopefully AF will stay away and you’ll get a late positive!

As I mentioned before I’m a very strong believer in energy and in the power of our mind. I also believe that if you pay close attention there are signs all around us. I don’t know if anyone else here is like this or you just think I’m crazy but in my entire life I never got wrong by reading signs. So whenever I want an answer I say for example if so and so is to happen I will see (lets say) a blue butterfly in X period of time.. and it might appear in a picture, I may hear a song naming it or maybe I read about one in a book or a magazine.. If I don’t see or hear, read etc any blue butterflies then what I asked for is not going to happen. Most of the times is so accurate that I cannot even believe how some things can appear to you. I usually ask for things that is very rare to stumble upon because let’s be honest if I ask to see a car is more likely to see it since it’s very common in our everyday life.
What I’m trying to say lol is that signs are not good for me this cycle I asked silently to see Borat if I’m pregnant or Mr Bean if I’m not ( I know this is so ridiculous but hey it works for me) well guess what? I’m freaking seeing Mr Bean E.V.E.R.Y.W.H.E.R.E I mean I don’t think I ever seen Mr Bean so often in my life lol
I know... I know... at least I hope I made you guys laugh

Punk I’m still having my hopes up for you hun! Wow this mug is a story by itself!!! I’m so clumsy I would totally smash it in the first few mins lol

So... if I end up pregnant this cycle yesterday could totally be my implantation day. Weird not so af like cramps and lot of pinches all over my lower abdomen. I know I’m probably not pregnant but this is definitely not normal for me so I’m putting it out there just for journal purposes!!

Mother’s Day hit me hard today.... everyone’s is posting their babies, their families and pregnant friends their bellies... it’s so devastating... I cried so much today. I’ll never forget last year a lady came to me and told me “happy Mother’s Day, do you celebrate? Are you a mommy?” And I was like smiling “no, I am not a mommy” and she went like “oh it’s ok honey... at least you have dance”... I’ll never forget how she hurt me. It was like she saw an old woman with no chance to have a baby anymore.. oh boy.. Mother’s Day is so hard....

CD 9 today. Out of the ordinary upset tummy all day today. I'm trying not to read anything into it, because I know it can just be a symptom of elevated progesterone and not necessarily mean pregnancy related. But its been aweful. Ive felt like I need to puke all day.

@SheRiskers. I'm getting excited for you. Maybe you ovulated later than you expected and you caught the start of a BFP. I am really hoping the lines get darker over the next couple of days. Don't give up hope until AF shows her ugly face.

AFM. Last night, my son was very upset and I had a little panick & anxiety attack and I was thinking of going back on the fence as I almost feel that we aren't ready. However, God won't give us more than we can handle. I am a overthinker and I am worried that since I didn't use OPKs like my last pregnancy (First Responce Ovulation Kit) that this isn't our month despite everything that happened. This tww is going to be very long especially when I don't know what dpo I am on.