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I'm 7dpO today, too. I feel that surge of hope coming and its attendant surge of dread. I don't know how you keep yourself going so positively, Pandorica. And I've only had 2 chemicals. They checked me for Ashermann's and a hydrosalpinx because of those (after my m/c's). Maybe you could ask for an HSG at some point? That might show those...

@Ella55 - That must be rough having to ttc 14 months when it happened much faster with the first one. I hope you don't have to ttc for that much longer. My first took 17 months, so I'm almost used to it taking time. What I'm not used to are these damn chemical pregnancies.

@Adoette - I know those two mixed feelings all too well. When you want to hope, but at the same time are afraid too. Well, I don't really have a choice trying to stay positive. It's either that or give up completely. But right now, the longing of another child are stronger than the feeling of giving up. So I try to soldier on. I thought about a HSG, but they only do those as a step in the fertility check up here and I can't get one of those since we already have a child. Not from our regular healt care system at least. I have to do it at a private clinic and that costs around $270. That's a bit too much since we have to do a lot of renovating in our home.

So, I'm trying not to count CD this cycle, even though I'm using both my monitor and an app. I don't want to obsess over which cd I am and when I'm able to take a test. Expecting ovulation in a week, give or take, so we'll see when my monitor switch to high and which day will be a peak. My cycle's been so extremely regular and seems to be in sync with the moon phases. The past few months, af has shown up at the same time as the full moon.

Spotting at 10dpO. It may be an early AF, as I have those occasionally.

@Adoette - How did it go, did af show up?

As for me, I'm kinda liking this more relaxed approach. I still use my monitor, but I'll probably stop using that after next cycle. Hopefully there isn't a "next cycle", but anyway. Got a peak saturday, so I counted 15 days ahead and marked that day as "expected af". That's as far as my tracking goes from now on. Not going to track dpo this time. Not expecting this to work, but I've been obsessing lately and need a way too relax. I think it's all these months of ttc that are starting to get to me.

@Pandorica--yes, it was AF, oh well. I know what you mean about trying to find a way to relax. All this tracking does feel kind of obsessive over time. And the mind just doesn't seem to let go of it easily.
Here's hoping that this full moon full of good news for you, anyway!

@Adoette - Ah, what a bummer that af got you. Thanks, I really hope this will be my lucky month.

I think I'm going to poas on sunday, since it's my birthday. Think I will be roughly 8 dpo, so I'm not expecting to see anything. But I still want to poas. If it's negative, I'll try my best not to test for a day or two. Although I know that will probably be almost impossible. I remember I found the waiting to get pregnant was way harder than when I got pregnant an was counting down the weeks until birth. At least then I had something to look forward to, and knew when it would happen. Well, not knew exactly the date but at least roughly. I'm so ready to be done with ttc!

So, I'm roughly 8 dpo and caved.. I think I see something faint, but I feel like I always do.

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