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It's been over a year?!

CTP tells me it has been over a year since I last wrote a journal update. Holy smokes!! I don't know how that happened. I'm following suit with all of the other updates ladies are doing, many of whom I used to religiously keep up-to-date on. :)

So here is my update of what has been happening in my TTCish world in the past year+. Our miracle baby #2 was born on 11/23/16. A little boy named Enzo Antonio and we have been enjoying this crazy busy life of two children, full-time jobs, 5 fur children, etc. Our daughter, who is almost 2.5, is a sassy little monster. She pushes all of our buttons at the same time. She is 85% responsible for our consistent purchases of wine. ;)

My husband and I always planned on having three children, although we obviously didn't plan on the 6 known miscarriages and extremely difficult (and expensive) pregnancies that it would take to result in a live birth. I changed consulting firms that I work for when I went back to work after our son was born and with that I lost the insurance that had previously covered a lot of the expenses for my pregnancies. We do think there is a possibility that my husband's insurance, which was my secondary insurance, will cover some of the expenses but we are not 100% certain. The big one are my IVIg infusions, which are $10-12K for each infusion.... and I get them weekly or bi-weekly. Not exactly a small chunk of change. There is also the whole stress factor. Being pregnant is extremely stressful for me. I don't really get to relax and just enjoy the pregnancy, as I am always worried about whether there will be a heartbeat at the next ultrasound, what my immune levels will come back as from my last blood draw, etc.

Because of that my husband and I are currently going back and forth between "we feel content with the two children we have" and "we would like to add one more to our family". We're leaning to adding a third, but will do so through adoption and most likely doing fostering to adopt. We will probably move forward with the foster parent process soon since it can take a while to get everything completed and then when we feel ready we will start being foster parents. We feel pretty strongly about doing this because we know there is such a need for foster families and our hearts are pretty heavy knowing that some children have never known a loving home. My husband is a firefighter and sees a lot of awful situations with children involved and with the ever growing heroin epidemic there are more and more children who are in terrible situations. We know we can't save them all, but we would like to try to help even just one child. Our hope would be to foster and then possibly adopt one of the children into our family that was a good fit and one who obviously isn't going to be reunited with their birth family. I am sure we are going to learn a lot along the way and we may change our plans, but this is where we are at for now.

So right now we are not TTC. In fact, we are trying to avoid it because if I were to get pregnant it is extremely risky and would almost certainly result in a miscarriage. A miscarriage now would be devastating and I don't want to risk putting either my husband or I through that. We're using good ol Trojans right now, but man do I hate condoms. My husband will be getting snipped at some point... we just want to make sure we are 100% set that we do not want any more biological children before we do that.

It was nice to see updates from some familiar faces. I do log on to this site fairly regularly to check on people, with my fingers crossed that I see BFPs for some very deserving ladies. :)

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