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I haven't updated since our failed FET cycle because I know everyone is going through their own s%$*, so I didn't want to just be posting one negative JE after another, but I know I care about my friend's updates, so I will add my own.

AF finally showed up about 6 days after I stopped the PIO injections. I thought it would be faster because my blood test showed my progesterone dropping pretty quickly, but my body likes to be difficult. She hung around a bit longer than normal, but has since gone. Chad and I will be trying naturally this cycle, but not with much effort.

We decided when we got our BFN this cycle that we were finally going to share our journey with family and friends. Thus far, we had kept this entire process to ourselves, but after the miscarriage and just flat out negative, we decided that we couldn't handle it alone anymore. We both have great families, so I wasn't worried about telling them at all. Everyone has been very supportive and loving. My parents were sad that we went through all that alone, but understood our reasoning. We just wanted that one semblance of normalcy that most people get when they get to surprise people with their pregnancy announcement, but I guess that's not how it's supposed to go for us. It has been a great weight removed from our shoulders, having this huge secret out in the open. I still feel a little weird talking about it openly, but I think that's just because I'd conditioned myself to not slip up. I told my mom I like to talk about it when I want to talk about it, but I don't like to be asked for updates all the time. She understood.

I saw my doctor last Monday. I decided that I was going to grill him since I had better control of my emotions this time. I asked him to go over everything with me; my blood work, my miscarriage panel, tests that could be done, why our embryos may have been bad, what we can do differently, and I even asked him about old wives tales that may or may not work. When we went over the blood work, he told me that he does not think I have PCOS (which another doctor had diagnosed me with, and I disagreed), and he cannot find any obvious reason why I would not be able to carry. He thinks we just had bad luck with our two embryos, but still feels like we will be successful. He does not think it is necessary to do the PGS testing on our embryos based on my age, blood work and history, and he also doesn't think the uterine receptivity testing is necessary because I've already had a successful implantation. I was glad because I'm sure both of those tests are very expensive. Next cycle, I am going to stay on the same protocol, including the special folate and baby aspirin, but he's going to add Lovenox injections for the first trimester and we're going to transfer two embryos. For some reason Chad and I both feel like this next cycle will finally be our successful cycle. We will see....

We really didn't know when we would be able to do another transfer since we're kind of tapped out, but we've had several offers of "help" from our families, and we are so grateful. Yesterday my mother in law came over with lunch, and right before she left, she sat us down and pulled out a check to cover an entire transfer. We were stunned, and blown away. I cried and cried like a baby, and thanked her through my sobs lol. She cried, and we all hugged. It's was very special and an amazing gift. Thanks to her, we will be doing our next transfer in October, and this time we will have all the love, support and prayers of our family. We feel very blessed, and we're very optimistic about this next cycle.