Community post

Journal

I have no idea anymore. The playbook went out the window.

I'm losing my mind!

I was so done with the idea of pregnancy. The loss in October gutted me. The surprise pregnancy and then loss the very next day in December was just one final blow. I haven't opened up this forum (except for a few moments just this past week to check on some friends). I haven't opened up my period/fertility apps on my phone. Honestly even seeing babies on social media was hurting me. Hubby and I decided to delay our foster to adopt after all, even though we lost the pregnancy, because it was too difficult to think about.

So here we are again. I have no idea when we BD-ed. I have no idea how far along I am, it can only be so far since my loss was 12/28. I went from not being able to get pregnant to three pregnancies since September?!? Is there something in the water??? Is it because I had completely given up and the universe is playing a game with me?

The only reason I tested now was because a toddler told me that I had a baby in my belly. Yes, you read that right. A 2/3 year old pointed to me and said "I no jump on you. baby in belly. girl baby in belly." It got stuck in my head for days and I couldn't shake it. I wasn't expecting to start my next cycle for another week or so, but I told hubby to buy a test and boom it was two dark lines immediately.

We are both so worried, but I called my mom. She told me to be happy today, because the baby is here today and that's all we have.

So who wants to follow along on this crazy rollercoast?


14 Comments • 8 months ago


Advertisement

 

Pregnancy test calculator

Use this calculator to help you decide when to take your first home pregnancy test.

1 - 10 of 14 Comments | Last Page


Lady!!!! I literally dropped my phone. Oh lovely! I cant wait to hear how this journey goes for you!!

8 months ago • Edited


Holy crap! Forgive my expression there ..I'm just dumb founded. That is amazing! Just wow. I'd love to join this ride! huge congrats!! Guess the universe is bound and determined to make you a momma.


User image

8 months ago


Could they put you on progesterone? It could possibly help.

8 months ago


Also, is there any possible way that there was s twin pregnancy last time and you are still pregnant with one? Someone I worked with had a miscarriage of a twin.

8 months ago


Thanks ladies! I'm so many emotions I have no idea what I am. My husband told me that he had no idea what my mood was and I told him, me either!

I'm having labs done today: hcg and progesterone. I'm worried already though because I compulsively took another test and it wasn't as dark. I don't know why I do that to myself!

Oh that's interesting about the twin question. I guess I'll know based on the hcg levels.


8 months ago • Post starter


Wow That’s an amazing story! Congratulations and fingers crossed all is well with baby!

8 months ago


Thanks, on my way to my midwife now for labs.

Hoping for good numbers.


8 months ago • Post starter


Hcg was 40.

Nurse said it was low-ish, but we don't really know my dates so I'm not sure what it means yet.

She is using the date I started bleeding with my loss last month as the date for my lmp. I had labs that day though and my hcg was 24. So it really isn't the best day to use imo. I would say the start of the next cycle would have been when my hcg went to 0 a few days later.

I go back Monday for more labs. They're expecting my hcg to be 160 or higher by then.

So I'm into the long wait until the results Tuesday!

Meanwhile I'm on a low dose aspirin, which is new. Apparently I tested positive for a few different clotting issues. Maybe this will be the change I need?!?

Thank you ladies for the support. I haven't told a soul, just my hubby and mom. I haven't even told my bff because I feel like everytime I tell her, I have to turn around and tell her it's a loss. She lost twins to still birth a few years ago, and it feels like salt on a wound.


8 months ago • Post starter


Yay! You are gonna blow past that 160 number! I also take baby aspirin every day...my doctor recommended it to me a few months back. Hope it's the magic touch for you guys

8 months ago


Thinking of you lady, hope you get amazing results tomorrow!!!


User image

8 months ago


   Last page


Log in or sign up to reply to this post.


Early pregnancy symptoms by day past ovulation

What signs and symptoms are most common on each day past ovulation?

 

Advertisement

 

Pregnancy test statistics

Select your day past ovulation to see the statistics and to get an understanding of what result you can expect.

Select your day past ovulation
7
dpo
8
dpo
9
dpo
10
dpo
11
dpo
12
dpo
13
dpo
14
dpo