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New Experiences and Closure.

Hey girls!! I hope you are all doing well. :)
I just wanted to post an update on how things are going over here. I'm great. Happy.
About a week ago, I was out drinking with my mom's best friend and she talked me into joining a dating site. I really didn't think it would lead to anything BUT I went on my first, first date EVER yesterday. So I met him through this dating site, we talked a bit through it and then exchanged phone numbers. He started texting me Friday afternoon. That led to talking from 6pm to 3:30am Saturday morning. Somewhere during this conversation we decided to schedule a date (he lives 1.5hrs away) for two weeks from not. We talked on and off Saturday and he decided he didn't want to wait two weeks and that he wanted to drive to my town and go out before he had to go to work. One major downfall to meeting someone online and talking as much as we did before hand is that dinner conversation is a little stilted. We had already discussed those typical first date questions and topics. Never-the-less, I really like him. He's 6 years older with a son (total cutie pie too). He's a great guy. I just don't know where his head is with it all now. We went to dinner and then walked by the lake at the local park. Before he left he said "We should hang out again soon" and gave me a hug. Now, I don't know if this is like the "easy letdown" or if he really meant it. I think this is where Brandon screwed my head up more than I had originally thought. But, there isn't anything to do now except wait and see if I hear back from him again. I'll be bummed if I don't, but it is what it is. I'm glad I've got the experience of a first date under my belt and that I took the leap. I was scared shitless but I'm glad I did it. Fingers crossed though!!
Now to the divorce update: Brandon came over Saturday morning to get his half of the paperwork and more of his stuff. I realize now that he's looking for quick money out of me for things. He keeps asking about what I plan to do with my jewelry. Some of it isn't even paid off but I will never wear it. I know he's going to expect me to pay half of his credit card debt because he used them occasionally for things for both of us. Whatever. My offer to him when we meet on Wednesday to discuss the last of the paperwork will be, "You can have all the jewelry and in return, I walk away Scot-free". I don't LEGALLY owe him a dime but I don't want a fight. I just want it to be finalized. He asked how I was and I was honest. "I'm doing good. I realize now that I don't disagree with the things you said. I'm me again and I didn't realize how much of a shell I had become. We weren't right for each other and we're both better off going our separate ways." I don't think he expected that but he more or less agreed and said that someday he'd like us to be friends. I nipped that notion in the bud real quick. I can't do that. Maybe in a few years, but not now. I don't want to be privy to new girlfriends, just like he knows nothing of the fact that I had met someone. I'm happier than I have been in YEARS! My God, it's so good to feel like myself again, loving life like I used to.
Other news: My older cousin and I have grown very close again and we're spending an entire weekend at the fair, the first weekend of September. I'm unbelievably excited! We're seeing The Band Perry in concert, going to the Demo Derby, and the Truck and Tractor Pulls. WOOT!

I keep checking in on you ladies. I'm hoping to see some good news from yall! :) HUGE hugs to all of you. Thank you for your never ending support! <3you!

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