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Do we deserve it?

I am sad to say that at CD7 this cycle, I'm not even sure I want to try to have a baby this month. I feel like my husband and I should both be doing better in the areas of our careers and our health. I feel like if we're not willing to work harder to get to healthy weights, and find more success with our job situations, do we really deserve to have a baby?

Also, this will sound stupid, but I watched seasons 1 and 2 of New Girl this week. It made me wish that I had been single for longer in my 20's so I could have dated more and met more people before settling down. It also made me miss that beginning of a relationship feeling - the excitement and lust. I've been married for a little over a year now, and I don't have any regrets. I love my husband and I wanted to get married. But I think watching many hours of New Girl in just a few days has distracted me a little bit.

So, maybe I'm just in a funk. Or maybe I just need a break from trying while I do some more processing. I'm not sure. Maybe if I just got back into a work out routine, it would make me feel better about myself. But, I also need to see that my husband is trying to better himself too.

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