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TTC after MC. Stories & Support Group

I just miscarried yesterday. I was devastated. I wanted this angel baby more than anything. I was 7 weeks and 2 days. I went to the er on monday bc of spotting and cramping they said everything looked great and that I was measuring at 5 weeks and 3 days and that I implanted high and that was good news.. Ok.. So anyone TTC understands the fury I had at this nurse trying to tell her that I am not 5 weeks and 3 days, but at the time I was actually 6 weeks and 6 days. She insisted that my dates were wrong. MY DATES ARE NOT WRONG, IDIOT. They also told me I wasn't bleeding. HMM.. I had been spotting at that point for 4 days of brown blood and the Saturday before the er I had red blood and again everyday after making 9 days total. It was even in the urine sample that I gave to them.. I was heartbroken bc I just knew what was happening. I begged my OB to see me everyday and they told me that they couldn't do anything for me and to wait for my appointment on Sept 3. I was so angry and felt so alone. I have cried and prayed every single day since I started spotting. I have read everything you can imagine on the internet looking for answers. Then yesterday I decided to go back to work (office job). I started having medium contractions and my emotions were everywhere. At 3:30pm I ran to the bathroom and there was a thick, red string of dark red blood leaking in the toilet. I wiped and that is when I saw it. It was so tiny just a little bigger than a sweat pea and pink with a gray spot in the middle. I sat there and stared at what I had thought my future was going to be for the longest. I was immediately out of pain and today my bleeding is starting to end. As sad as I am, I feel like I am relieved that the constant worry is over and I am ready to try again.

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