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Gosh this is such a rollercoaster, I just don't know how to feel. One moment this pregnancy is failing, the next it is suddenly viable, the next it's failing, the next it's suddenly possibly viable again

My story is, I have been trying for a year, I have no children and have had two early miscarriages in these 12 months.

My last LMP was 31st March, it wasn't a true period, in that, it was the bleed from a very early miscarriage (under 5 weeks), but I took it as the first day of my period as planned to try again straight away.

When, what I thought was 11 dpo came around (usually when I pick up a positive on a frer), I tested and I got a faint positive, it took 3 mins to show. I tested again on what I thought was 12 dpo and the frer was even lighter. I then tested with a cb digital and it was negative, this was on the day my period was due and I knew that if it wasn't positive - I had likely had another chemical. I then waited for my period but it didn't arrive, at around 4 days late, I tried with a cb digital again, it was negative, by this point I really should have had a positive test.

I waited until my period was about 10 days late and checked again - BOOM - strong positive. WTF, I freaked, worried it must be a slow growing ectopic. I went to EPAU and told them I had pain (sneaky, sneaky but I'm pretty sure they would have told me to go away otherwise), so I could get serial hcgs. That was last Weds. The first hcg was 438, then on Friday it went up 97% to 844 - yay - but not quite doubling so worried me - then sadly on Sunday it only went to 1228 '(45%, major turd), so we all worried about ectopic.

I had a scan yesterday and it appears there is the tiniest sac which would put me at under 5 weeks, there was no yolk sac or nuttin. Arghhh, and now I have been told my hcg yesterday was 2200 something, which means "a good rise" to them of 80%, but to me it screams WTF is going on.

So now I will have a scan next Tuesday, another week of limbo. It'll be so very cruel if it's just another miscarriage, the erratic rises don't fill me with hope

I would like to say though - I think I must have ovulated 10 days later than I thought I did, and that those initial fading tests I had may have been from last month's chemical, this means, you CAN ovulate with a small amount of hcg in your body, maybe mine was under 10.