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Waiting continues

So I had my blood taken for my second beta hcg test.... but now I have to wait until Friday to get the results.

I'm not feeling anything except tired... and my boobs don't even bother me anymore... so does this mean that I lost it?

But if I lost it, then they would call and let me know ahead of time... right? Or would they just make me wait until the appointment on Friday?

I can't stand not knowing. I want to believe that little Goopy is still there... but I also want to be prepared if there isn't anything.

But I haven't had horrible cramping... and it was only pink for about 3 hours and one little clot... and the dr said my cervix was high and closed and that everything looked ok... but then the ultrasound we only saw the sac... and I was at 5w5days... wouldn't I have seen something else besides just the sac or was that normal?

*sigh* I'm just a mess.... and I'm retaining water and all my clothes feel tight. Just feeling miserable and sad and scared. Today is supposed to be 6 weeks.... and I don't know if I should be celebrating or mourning....