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Contemplating it is extremely hard I officially embraced the 10 DPO but I have not symptoms but light cramps.

AFM not much my temp dropped a little yesterday, went back up today . Light cramps no other symptoms. I feel in between two worlds not knowing and too afraid of still hoping. What to do?

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TWB

Calvingirl: TTC #3, Cycle 1, CD 13. Temp is starting to go up, and I should catch the egg this weekend.

TWW
Margie_m: TTC#1 Cycle 28, O'd 26 Sept, AF due 10 Oct

Luna_red: TTC#3 Cycle 1, O'd on Sept 23, AF due on 7 Oct

Jbean: TTC #2 Cycle 6, O'd on Sept 19, AF due Oct 3, 12 DPO

Shananabooboo: TTC #1 Cycle 2 O'd on sept 25th AF due oct 10th 6dpo

Lalou3tt3: TTC#1 Cycle 1 clomid + Metformin, O'd Sept 19th or Sept 29 (makes more sense), 16 DPO or 6 DPO , AF due Oct 6th to later

MrsB11: TTC#2, Cycle 1 O'd 20th Sept, 8dpo today, AF due about 4th October, will probably test from tomorrow morning.

MrsRabren: TTC#2, Cycle 2, O'd Sept 25, not sure when AF is due, cycles still out of whack (used to have 10-11 day LP which would put AF due around Oct 5)

Mommy2016: TTC#1 Cycle 13, O'd Sept 25/26,5-6 DPO, AF is due around Oct 9th or 10th.

Saturday03: TTC#2 Cycle 2, O'd 9/30/15 AF due between 10/16 and 10/20.

Jku394: TTC#3 Cycle 10, O'd 9/26/15 AF due 10/10/15

Kmksmd: TTC#1 Cycle 10, O'd 10/5/15, AF due ?10/16/15ish (cycles have been erratic)

Jeskalillis: TTC#1, Cycle 30 of official TTC, IUI #2 on Sept. 24, AF due 10/9

BFP
Contemplating: TCC#1, Cycle Unknown (tried for 4 years on and off due to life circumstances), LMP: 28 Aug 2015, BFP 21 Sept (Gold Digital FRER), EDD: 03 June 2016

Wishingforviolet: TTC#1 Cycle 3, EDD: 10 June 2016

clarabelle31: TTC#1 Cycle 3 (clomid/Ovidrel), O'd on Sept 20, AF due on Oct 4

MMcAlli: TTC #1 Cycle 10, O'd on Sept 27, AF due on 11 Oct. 8 DPO

Mommato4boys, edd 15 June 2016

Hi Everyone!

I hope you don't mind me jumping in on this thread, but I am so in need of conversation with people that understand what I am going through. I just had my fourth IUI this past Monday so I am currently 6dpo. We have been trying to conceive number 2 for two and a half years. I got pregnant in March of 2014, but sadly it ended in a missed miscarriage at 10 weeks. We haven't had any success since then. My husband had two SA's ...the first one bad, the second one fine so we aren't sure if that's a factor or not. This will be our last iui at least for the time being because we are running out of money. Here in Maine, no fertility treatments are covered so we have been paying out of pocket.

My mom is in the end stages of cancer. She has been with me on this journey and I want nothing more than to be able to tell her I am pregnant before she passes. I want her to know I will be alright and that she doesn't have to worry about me. I really need that.

I try so hard not to think about it but it is all consuming. I struggle between wanting to stay positive, but also wanting to pretend I don't care. I worry that being positive and confident will make it that much more devastating when I find out it didn't work, yet I worry that being negative will make it so too. I am not sure that I can handle another disappointment. I am feeling the pressure to conceive this cycle since we can't seek interventions again for a few months.

So far this cycle, it's been business as usual. My breasts started getting sore yesterday which is the exact same time they get sore each month. I'm bloated off and on. Other than that I feel normal.

I'm just looking for some words of wisdom, comraderie, and hopefully some positive stories too!

Current TWW stats: Cycle Day 23/6dpo; cycle 28 of TTC #2; 4th IUI w/ 100 mg. of Clomid on 10/5 - 10,000 iu Pregnyl trigger on 10/4..AF expected 10/19

Good morning ladies,

AF showed for me this morning so I guess I'm moving on to the July board.

Good luck to all of you in the TWW and congratulations to all of you who got your BFPs this month.

dlb1024 I am sorry you are going through so much and i wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. The only thing I can do is just keep you and your family in my prayers in hoping that your wishes will become true .

Everyone which tests did you used and how faint were they? Do you trust blue dyes?

AFM this is the 3rd test I take and have an extremely faint positive. I have tried posting two of them but you can barely see them . I am not sure i can trust those tests. Not knowing is killing me. I am beyond anxious, crying . I just don t know what to do. My appointment is on Friday. That was the earliest they could squeeze me. As ironically as the situation is, my doctor who just gave birth a month ago is only partially back to work. I understand the needs of a newborn and a new mum to stay closed to her baby. But in the meantime, the unknown is driving me insane.

Lalou3tt3 - I took a look and it looks like a feint positive to me! Which would be about right for day 11PO... I know the uncertainty drives you crazy, I know what the weekend after our feint positive felt like. The one thing that comforted me in that time was knowing that whatever the outcome is a bean can stick... just that hope made me feel that even if it is chemical or goes away it gave me hope for future cycles. I had never ha had even a feint positive before. Do you have Internet cheepies to monitor progression with? That really helped me get though this early time, just seeing the line get darker. I am crossing all my fingers and toes that this is your sticky bean

Sorry for the double post, I was on my phone and the website was making the typing difficult, I didn't want to lose what I had! On the iPad now, much easier :)

Margie_M - Sending a big hug and lots of for your next cycle

dlb1024 - welcome and sorry for your losses and challenges you are facing at the moment. I'm not sure what to say... I know that the fine line between hope and realism is a hard place to be too much and and you are crushed no hope and the process becomes unbearable. The tough part is what you are going through with your mother is extremely stressful and is likely not to be making the TTC easier. We were TTC for 4 years on and off ( we stopped trying while moving countries and settling in). With the costs of moving country twice in the last 6 years fertility treatments were just not an option for us. We had stopped trying and were not not trying... If that makes sense not using contraception but not temping or doing anything else. My DH was assaulted in August and most of the month we were at appointments and surgeries for him. We then moved the weekend before O was due. I actually said to DH we are totally out this month with all the stress. I just took a test at 8 or 10 DPO (not sure as were weren't monitoring O) it was a Friday morning and that is my routine when we are not not trying, i can't live my life not drinking at all and my theory is plenty of babies are conceived by 'accident' and I don't drink much at all but we had a big weekend ahead, a few social engagements and being in the second half of the 2ww I took an IC test. Low and behold there was my first feint positive ever! In the middle of everything and somewhere between a DMB concert and a Foo Fighters concert we had conceived. We're not out of the woods.. Only 6 weeks and I'm waiting for a scan on Tues to confirm that it is not ectopic. I have hope now that if this isn't it it can happen. I'm just trying to say sometimes the pressure we put ourselves under is our biggest challenge... Sending lots of love and strength on this journey Be kind to your self... This is not your fault and as much as we try to control it there are just parts of this that can not be controlled, just remember you are not alone, for partner and family are there for you and there are plenty of amazing ladies here to share your thoughts and feelings with.

Got my BFP this recent Friday morning! Due around June 19th :)
Unplanned, but my man and I are both excited.
No sore boobs yet, but very bloated and slight nausea here and there.
Got cystic acne a few days before I got my BFP.
Don't have any extreme symptoms yet, but I'm sure they will be here by the end of this week!

Contemplating Thank you very much for your support. You are so wonderful and for your baby. Driving around town with DH really helped today. Listening to music , chatting with in laws and to my mum were very great help. Thank you very much I feel much better going to bed tonight.

MMcalli: Yay for HCG levels!

Dsinha and Margie_M and jku394: I really hope November is your month. *big hugs* for July babies.

Mommato4boys: Wow, #5 that's amazing!

Mommy2016: Any update?

Calvingirl: you catch your egg :)

Lalou3tt3: I can see a faint line too!! I used FRER and Clearblue, but I did test quite late, so mine came up strong. Do you think you'll test again before your doctor's appointment?

dlb1024: Hey, welcome to the board. I'm sorry to hear about your mom's condition. My heart goes out to you during your time of need. It's hard having everyone tell you how you should think or feel or what you should or shouldn't be thinking. Sometimes it's easier just to let it go and cry if you need to or laugh if you need to. I find that pretending is always the hardest. Sometimes you just need to let your emotions out, but I guess the trick is to make sure once you've let it out that you do get back up and take each day at a time. I hope everything works out for you.

Contemplating: I have to admit that I was a bit naughty this month too and also went with the "plenty of babies are conceived by 'accident' " theory. I normally don't drink after AF has finished but I decided to go out for a girl's night and we had quite a few Margaritas. I don't even think we Bd'd on O day. Good luck for your first scan.

SavCE:

AFM: I went to the doctors and they didn't even bother to confirm my pregnancy. I don't have any symptoms apart from sore boobs, and I'm a little scared but the doctor said I might just be lucky. They sent me off for prenatal bloods and I'm booked in for my first scan on November 2. I'm tempted to test again to make sure it's still there. Probably a good thing I don't have any lying around.

Would any of you ladies who got your BFP be interested in joining a private Facebook group? It's really helped being able to talk to all of you and I'd really like to keep in touch throughout our pregnancies :)