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PBC, I have a horrible self image and it has take years and I am still very uncomfortable with myself, but getting better! FX you get your bfp!

Scooby, so sorry to hear about yur sister. My cousin has been in a coma for 5 years now... her kids 18 and 22 and my 73 year old aunt have taken care of her but just recently decided (since the kids are going to college) to put her in a nursing home. Your mom is a great woman for all she does... it isn't easy. Prayers to you all.

Rae, GL to you.

negative digi this am at 13dpiui now just waiting on AF to start

Hey Ladies,

I think it's been about 5 months since I have posted or really read the forums. Went through some emotional times with TTC and made the decision to go see a specialist which was very difficult for me. We are now on cycle 33 of TTC. Did my first round of clomid this cycle with IUI and am now 9 dpiui.

So far I think the first few days after the IUI had been then most emotional yet since I feel like this has been our best chance so far. Hoping this is the month. :)

Hoping to see lots of BFPs this month

Rae - good luck, I hope this is your lucky month!!!!

Welcome back Rosco, I think we all on this forum know how much it sucks sometimes we we are all here if you ever want to vent or what not. Good luck to you and I hope that seeing a specialist will be the key to getting that BFP!

Bama - Ugh, I know it's so disappointing but I guess the only comfort I can give is that I will be with you soon on a new cycle, another.freaking.cycle!

Cristi - remind me where you are at, did you see 7dpo? Damn I hope this is your month!!!!!! I'm not leaving here until you get that BFP, seriously, but I have a feeling it won't be too much longer! I need to just realize that DH loves me, he likes my body and all that jazz. It really is the worst when you start projecting how someone should feel about you. It's horrible too as if just b/c you hate your looks (well some aspects of your looks) that they should too. We all have things we hate about ourselves. This is something I struggle with daily and try to do better. I do know that him loving me has also allowed me to see the features (both mentally and physically) that I never thought were good. Sigh damn bodies.

10 DPO for me, nothing to note. I feel out and I expect to see AF soon. I don't feel bummed about it yet but I also didn't try my best this month. I'm ready to get back in the ttc groove and haven't felt that motivation for a while.

Bama - I am so sorry that you are out this month.

Rosco - Welcome back! Fingers crossed!

Cristi - Prayers your way as well! I know that decision could not have been easy for your family. I will send up some extra prayers for your cousin's children.

pbc - You're not out yet! Glad you are not feeling terribly down though. Isn't it funny how sometimes being out can be totally devastating and other times you are fine and ready for the next month? Anyway, glad you are feeling determined!

Bama, I am so sorry friend! Hugs!

Rosco, welcome back and have everything crossed you get your BFP!

PBC, I am 8 dpo today... and of course my POAS addiction kicked in... 2 tests today both negative. LOL! You AREN'T leaving until you get your BFP too... I am staying here for that one dang it! LOL! I hope you are right that I get mine sooner rather than later! I hope that for all of us!

Scooby... thanks! Big hugs!

AFM, 8 dpo and nothing.. tests are negative but still really early... no symptoms at all... feeling out this month, we shall see.

went to doctors office today she was backed up and i landed up staying an hour after hours to talk to her. plan of action is to test my fasting insulin and recheck my thrroid because she thinks my thryroid level is high for ttc. so blood test sometime this week and prescriptions to follow. she hopes that the thyroid med and maybe adding metformin if my insulin level is off will help me lose weight. she wants me to wait 5-6 months to start clomid again :( and she told me to stop opks and bbt charting b/c it was just stressing my out. needless to say i was upset she wants me to wait 6 months and i wanted to sob right there in the office, and a little shocked she wants me to stop bbt charting when i have been so diligent with it. i have waited so long and i just don't want to have to wait anymore. on top of that my insurance only cover infertility to diagnosis and does not coever fertility meds like clomid, it does cover provera, thyroid meds, metformin,..etc. pretty sure it won't cover ultrasounds when i start cloid again. also we are going to check if insurance will cover asemen analysis and get that done too for we can adress any problems there.

SMC, maybe you'll conceive while your waiting it out. I'm sorry that your appointment didn't go as plan. Try to stay as strong as possible.

UPPDATE: So I'm not sure if these are symptoms or if I am going insane... I have had gas for the past 3 days, which I normally only get this bad two-three days before AF makes her unwanted appearance an I know its entirely too early for that. The past two days my uterus area has felt heavy, food isn't agreeing with me no matter what I eat, I get twinges through out my lower abdominal region... I know its not much and I'm probably over thinking this stuff, but I didn't experience any of this after my first IUI... I promised my self I wouldn't test until August 27 at the earliest......

SMC, If I were you I would keep BBT because you have develooped a habit.. if nothing else to make sure your cycles stay on track or to know if the meds may be helping. I am taking Metformin just to see if it will help, though my insulin levels have been great. She said "it won't hurt, might help" so I figured why not! I bet you get pregnant in the first month or two of this! Then you can tell her "oops" LOL! FX and praying for you and loads of baby dust heading your way.

Rae, how many dpiui are you? Those could definately be good signs. FX!

AFM, extremely stressful day. My parents landlord died a while back and his grandkids took over the rental property... well he was okay with them having their 2 dogs and 2 cats but it wasn't in the lease it was a verbal thing... they now have to be out in 5 days! SERIOUSLY in the middle of the month? They are both retired and on fixed incomes and trying to come up with the money to move much less pay deposits etc... and now of course they will be further away from us. Right now they are only 7 miles from us. I am so upset, but they fought and fought and lost! UGH! I hate ignorant stupid people! (I rarely use the word hate but I am pissed). My husband and I went over today and started packing. After my DH's appointment tomorrow we are going to get more boxes and head back over. Anyways, sorry I needed to rant and vent, not something I want to blast out there, but damn I needed to get it off my chest. I am stressed to the max! No symptoms or anything... going to try to not test anymore... lol.. we will see how I do!

the other thing i m trying to decide is that i have a refill on clomid at the pharmacy that can fill and i am not sure if i should try it or not. i kinda feel like a little kid "should i do this and not tell my ob and maybe i won;t get into trouble?" idk what to do. i am only cd20, obviously didn't ovulate or if i did there was no chance of ovulation because my temps never stayed up (or even went up really) and they are definitely low now. i will wait to cd 30 and see if i get AF otherwise i have provera standing by.