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So... I have 3 kids - age 10, 4 and nearly 3.. I'm currently either in the 2ww or I'm about to 'o'... I have a 28 day cycle, bleed for 5 of those.. I'm pretty sure I o earlier than CD 13-14 (judging by conception of my 2 youngest - my eldest was a surprise and walked away knowing the gender at 24 weeks, thinking I was about 6 weeks when I went in for the dating scan haha)...

So I could've Od anywhere from CD 8 on wards... currently on CD13...

I should use OPKs so I can pin-point to be honest, hate the uncertainty.

My partner and I aren't trying per se, but we've never used anything in a year - for a reason.. He suffers(ed) with incompetent ejaculation - basically, he has never ejaculated during sex the entire year we've been having sex - save for 2 lengthy (sorry if TMI) hand-jobs - he's had some kind of mental block.. Until this month, and has ejaculated 3 BDs off the bat (CD 7, 10 and 12!).

Whilst this is great - I had concerns that a) we wouldnt be able to ever have a child naturally together b) I had a chuff like a wizards sleeve from the previous three c) he's overcome whatever mental block he had (outlook for imcompetent ejaculation is very poor and intensive sexual therapy intervention is the only way to overcome it) - we're not quite ready for a baby together - in another 3 years would be ideal..

That said, if I do end up pregnant at the end of this cycle, it will be a blessing and we'll definitely manage and work it out somehow - and as my youngest is about to start nursery in September this year and my 2 eldest in full time school, what would I do with myself? I'm a mother, that's my calling and that's all I;ve done for the past 5 years - be a full time mother.

If I'm not, a job it is - which I also secretly hanker after, as a full time mothering has be climbing the walls on most days! I love my kids, but I miss the social side of having a job and the satisfaction of a days work/my bank balance at the end of the month!

My partner is in his first year of university - 2 more years until he graduates - so again, not ideal because he studies alot and is on placement much of the academic year (he's doing a nursing degree)...

Oh I don't know... I just don't know. My AF is due on the 13th of May (my daughters 3rd birthday) and my partners 30th birthday is May 12th - the day to take a HPT if I were to have Od in the middle of my cycle. It's so close, but still seems so far away!

I HATE THE 2WW!!!!!!!