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Miscarriage Guilt

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I recently had an early miscarriage on the 24th July this year and ever since then I feel like a part of me is missing. We already have 2 beautiful boys aged 5 and 2 and we weren’t trying for any more children as I felt my family was complete. I missed a pill the month I fell pregnant (due to unforeseen circumstances!) and I knew I was pregnant from the symptoms I was experiencing. I tested using several brands and got faint positives but I started to bleed the day after my period was due. I had a blood draw and this confirmed I was in early pregnancy but my recount showed I had miscarried. I know I was only about 4 weeks pregnant and it wasn’t planned at all but I am now constantly comparing to how many weeks I would have been, having several dreams I am pregnant and testing near my periods (ridiculous as I am on the pill!) hoping I see a line again to make myself feel better! Will this pass and is it just part of the grieving process? I had previously had an early miscarriage the year before I had my first son but I was younger and although I’ll never forget it and it was awful, I didn’t feel this lasting emotion of emptiness! Me and my partner have discussed another baby but we feel our family is complete but I can’t help but keep wondering ‘what if’. Please tell me I’m not the only one, I’m driving myself crazy! We didn’t tell any family either, just a couple of close friends know, so I feel like I just have to keep it to myself.
Any advice or help would be greatly appreciated!

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