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dreamy

Maybe it was because I was so tired from getting no sleep the night before. I'd like to think its my body telling me something. Last night I dreamt of a curly blonde haired little girl named Clara. Is that the bean inside me trying to assert herself? I know I have hoped to have a boy, especially after losing TJ. But that is only my grief . I remember after losing him, I would dream of what he would have looked like as a toddler. He had the same mop of curly blonde hair as Clara did. Is my brain playing tricks on me? I sure hope not. And why Clara? It was my great grandmother's sisters name. It has a pretty ring to it. I will have to keep it in mind if the opportunity comes up to need a name. Fingers crossed. This is the 3rd month we have been trying. 3 years since loosing our son to pprom. He was muched loved in his very short life. I hope beyond hope I am strong enough to go through the emotional toll another similar loss would present me. 4 noted days to find out. Though practically no symptoms at all this 2ww. Last month I was sure I was prego, BBS were sore for 10 days straight. PD was 3 days late.

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