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notmarvin

We made it to 8 weeks this time. My heart hurts.

Well, I'm back. what more can I say? At the 7w us baby measured 6.2 with a heart rate of 100. Doc said "cautious optimism". She thought the HR was low and the growth behind. At 8 weeks baby measured 7.2 with a heart rate of 120. I honestly thought we were in the clear. At 9w2d baby measured 8. No heart beat. This is my fourth loss. I have my D&C tomorrow. Baby will be tested. Based on that we will decide what to do next. I am thinking IVF with PGD. This repeat loss is getting ridiculous. I figure if I start working crazy overtime, my student loans should be paid of in a month or so, we can save up the 20K for this. What a stupid, stupid situation to be in. its not fair. My coworker is two weeks ahead of me. Now I get to see her every week and be reminded that my baby is dead. This sucks. I hope that IVF PGD is our ticket. I don't feel my journey is over yet.

MMC 12/2000 D&C Molar pregnancy 12/2001 MMC 1/2015 D&C mosaic turners 3/16 Laparascopic cystectomy, Unilateral salpingo-oophorectomy 4/16 Femara no response 5/16, 6/16 Femara + gonal f + novarel or some combo =BFN 7/16 Gonal f only and trigger. IUI #1 8w no heart beat D&C triploidy