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Well, congratulations - happy healthy 9 months :) And thanks for the encouraging words lol.

I think you misunderstood.

I miscarried today at 6 weeks after it took me 17 cycles just to get a positive on any pregnancy test, let alone the dark lines I was getting that apparently meant nothing.

I'd rather kill myself than go through TTC and get a bunch of positives and then miscarry again, hence giving up and staying that way like I should of back at Cycle 12.

Thank you for the congratulations. They would have been very appreciated, if I didn't currently feel like my entire world was crushed.

I am so sorry. I did misunderstand you. I was reading you made it successfully to the end of 6 weeks....that is a very sad outcome after having waited for so long - I feel for you. We have been trying since August 2013. I became pregnant in November 2014 only to lose my baby at 9.5 weeks this January. No viable pregnancy since and all medicated IUI stim cycles. It is a depressing situation but there is hope even though I had 8 miscarriages in the last 10 years. I know with the Lord all things are possible, He delivers us from our sorrow and misery and gives us life. Sending hugs your way. I will keep you in my prayers tonight, Eiren <3

We are all here for you hun and have felt just like you are. I have had 8 miscarriages but do have a beautiful healthy happy daughter who will be turning 4 in just a few days. Believe me when I say miracles do happen. Please do not harm yourself in any way...be stronger than this and beat this long road of infertility. I am always here if you want to talk, I can provide you my email too if you want it! Stay strong!

You are someone's special gift whose life has a purpose. Your circumstances will mold you into a better person, if you don't allow them to make you give up. It is fine to feel. Just make sure that your actions don't reflect the negative feelings. As these ladies stated, it hurts and is very hard, but there is hope. I will be praying for your peace and comfort. It will happen for you. Hugs

Thank you, everyone. It's a hard time and over the past two days I've been angry and hopeful and empty and happy all at different points and my emotions are kind of settling.

I passed several very large clots and then my body didn't hurt anymore. It was hard to appear happy with family because of what was going on.

I bought a test from Walmart, just to confirm that a miscarriage was exactly what was going on. Within two/three days, my lines have gone from incredibly dark to almost non-existent. I'll be testing one more time in the future to make sure the hcg is out of my system...

My husband wants to try again, and I do too, but this just hurts to a point where I can't metabolize the sadness into anything but anger and frustration at myself and the world.

Thank you all for your kind words and understanding. I know we're all going through the same things. <3 I hope everyone had a good Christmas (or at least better than mine!)

I have been thinking of you and praying for you. Wishing you all the best, complete physical and emotional healing. Much love!

I'm so sorry hun :( (((hugs)))