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Getting my mind right

I actually had a really good weekend. I finally went wedding dress shopping and wow, I am still in complete shock that this is happening to me. I always never wanted to get married and look at me now. I also am car shopping at the moment and I also found some cars that I'm interested in, but I need my Dad and my Hubby to look at it. This definitely took my mind off the ttc part of my life. As the months roll by and the anniversary for my little angel quickly approaches. It's hard enough that I was pregnant around this time and now I feel empty. I'm doing everything to keep myself busy and keep my mind off it, it still consumes me at times.

I started the OPKs this cycle and using the PreSeed as well and I'm hoping that I really got it this time around. I got my first positive on CD 10 and all the way up until CD 14. CD 15 I got a faint line. I just hope this could be it for me, I really hate having to test and then i see a BFN. I have so many hpt tests in the house, but I'm so afraid to use them because I dont want to get a negative test. Even though every time I go to the bathroom and I wipe, I'm always checking to see any kind of CF that I can examine. I'm on CD 16 and usually on a 24-26 day cycle and very regular. I know I OV'd because I had the pain on the right side, which was followed by sore nipples, which was really odd, but like I said I'm not looking into any symptoms this month.

I'm definitely not stressing much this cycle that I dont really try to get my hopes up anymore. I hate that feeling that you get. I'm just trying to focus on any and everything else because I don't want to become overwhelmbed by this at all. I'll focus on my wedding gown and focusing on slowly starting to plan little things for our wedding.

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