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Alice, yes, you're right, very messy indeed. They just need to get it together. If you can believe it it's gotten worse since my last post.... >.< lol. No, my first ultrasound isn't scheduled yet. I had to wait for my hcg to be at 5,000 before they would schedule it, but it is now and I should be hearing from someone soon to get appt.

Nikolina, I'm ok. Still stressing. lol. How're you? I'm glad I'm not alone in the no symptoms category. I have some acne yes, but not too bad. Mostly on my back? so weird and painful. Yes my hcg did rise (will update below.) but my progesterone dropped. :( My doc is STILL not worried about it.

Jada, awe thanks for popping in for a bit! Hope you'll be able to get some free time soon to give us more of an update. :)

ok, so update on my hcg. It's up from 1,674 to 8,051 which is great. :) But my progesterone is down from the 11 it was last week to 10 now. Doctor is still not worried and still says it's normal. I was freaking out that it was low and she said to her "low" is less than 5.... uhhh ok..... I asked the medical assistant if I can be put on a higher dose of progesterone and she said she'd have to ask the "head" medical assistant. UGH. I said well, can I double up in the mean time? she said "I don't know, I'll have to ask the head MA." What the heck? why are you even paid to be there? WHAT DO YOU KNOW?? I'm just so afraid it's going to keep dropping and then the baby won't make it. :( I really am scared and I feel like I'm not being listened to. I put in a call to my PCM and said that I wanted a referral to the OB office they use so hopefully as soon as I get my first scan and confirmation of a heartbeat I can head on over to their office and maybe start receiving some better care. I just hate how stressful this pregnancy has been from the get go. Wish I didn't have a cp so that I wouldn't be this freaked out!

hope you ladies are well. <3

Hi sweet ladies!!

MummyHillsdon, I'm glad to hear your bleeding has stopped! I remember how that helped me coop better. Hoping your opks will turn positive soon and that your birthday and your lucky number will do the trick!!! Crossing my fingers for you!!!

Missytwoshoes, ugh!!! Your HCG numbers are definitely great, but I understand you feel a bit nervous with the progesteron going down. It is still okay, but I can imagine it just feels scary not to have a buffer or so. Surely there is no harm in giving you a higher dose? So frustrating... It seems like they are not even trying to understand or reassure you. I hope you hear from someone soon for an appointment!!! I'm so sorry you have to go through all this mess, I hope it will get a lot better if you switch to another place!!!

Sending you all lots of love, baby dust and sticky vibes!!!!!

Alice

This will be my last post here.
As much as I love you ladies my struggle to get pregnant is deeply upsetting. A year of trying and two chemicals!
Where did this come from? We have a little girl that barely took any time to conceive.
This journey isn't enjoyable anymore and I feel totally distressed by it all that it's making me ill & my marriage a struggle.
I've made an app with my doc to demand tests as there is obviously something wrong with me.
Thank you for all being so sweet & I wish you luck with all that you do.

Emmy xxxxxxx

Hi ladies,

Emmy, I miss you already, but understand that sometimes you just need time...to breath, think, and get in a better place. Know we are here for you!

Alice, I am so happy to hear you are having a girl, maybe bc that's what I want, LOL. I am sure you and your hubby will come up with a GREAT name :) And I know I am yet to be where you ladies are as in being pregnant, but I do appreciate you and all of you for being here and sharing! For whatever that's worth.

Missy, I seriously hate when people don't help especially when it's in their lane to be able to help you :/ I do pray that you will have peace so the stress doesn't affect the baby. Everything is going to be just fine. I hope you stay around here too ;)

Mummy, WELCOME!! I am sorry you have to be here, but I am glad you are here and willing to share your story and accept our friendship. Just a quick note on me: I have a history of uterine fibroids and just had my second myomectomy on 19 Jun 15. We suffered a miscarriage on 21 Nov 14 and haven't been able to get pregnant since. However, now with the surgery my doctor is planning to help us get pregnant as soon as I am healed up, so in September of this year. I pray you have your rainbow baby on the way by then and that you stay around!

Niko, I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!! I think the acne is a small price to pay...says the lady who came home and did a mask, LOL! I can't wait to hear how it goes telling your family's. Any idea how y'all will??

AFM, well AF has come in full force, exactly 6 weeks since my last one. I am thinking that it is good, but ugh to see the witch again...I enjoyed my break! So tomorrow I will be 5 weeks post surgery, so yep we have been having "fun" ha ha. I am really hopeful and praying for September as that will be the three month mark and we will start working for baby Hartfield :)

Jlhart22 bless ya hun it sounds like youve been through alot but its good to hear that things maybe looking up for you, and thank you for the welcome my names carole and ive been trying to concieve for 6 cycles with 2 chemicals and hoping for no more like everyone else, I hooe everything goes well for you :)
alice wonderer, I think that is whats helped me cope now that I dont have the AF pains its easier as im not having to think about it with every pain I have, I just hope with this cycle I either get my positive and it sticks or I get a negative and I can just wait till next cycle, I couldnt cope with another chemical thia cycle but im really hoping for the 1st 1 lol, so fingers crossed, hope ur ok xx

Hi Beautiful Ladies :)

Emmy hun, so so sorry to hear that af arrived!!! I totally understand you that you need time away from all of this, but hun please please dont give up and stay positive. I hope you will get appointment soon and will get some answers. Sending you lods lods love hun!!!! xxx

Hay Alice hun, thank you so much :) Awww you so lucky that you dont have a acne, ahhh mine is multiplying every day lol Well any baby names yet??? :) Sending you lods lods lods baby dust hun :)

Hayyyy Jadaaa :) Thank you so much for checking in :) We missed you ;) Boohooo for af arriving, but hun that just mean that your body is doing what is supposed to do in order to get pregnant :) September is around the corner, 1 month to go:) Jeesss time fly's :) So glad yea are having fun, lolits great practice ;) Yea we are so excited to tell our family's, haven decided how we gona tell them yet, but will think of something cutte :) Sending you lods lods baby dust hun :)

Hay Missytwoeshoes hun, wow your hgc levels are gone up sooo high!!! :) So glad to hear that. Ahhh your doc...hope you will get to change doc soon. Its so stressful when they just dont care. But hun, im sure that if your progesterone would be too low he would have put you on on larger dose, im sure about that. But i understand you totally how you feel, cos when you read other womens progesterone levels, they are way higher right? But its dont mean that yours is too low hun!!! Everyone is different. My doctor even didnt take bloods for progesterone, she didnt think it was needed :/ But defo gona get them done back home :) How you feeling othervise? Hope you get scan appointment v v soon hun :) When are yea planing telling your family?? Sending you lods lods baby dust and super sticky vibes!!!

Hay MummyHilldson, so glad to hear that you staying positive!!! :) Everytime i got af i felt sooo low andsad,but then once af was gone, i got excited cos ovulation was sooo close ;) I have fx hun that this is the month for you and sending you lods lods baby dust!!! :) Are you taking bbt?

Well as for me nothing much to report...still acne, and have a bad pain in neck, feels like i slept wrong, have that for last 2 days...ahhh hope its gets better soon, cos can not sleep at night cos of that! Have a bit sharp pain in my back on left side, comes and goes. Not long now for holidays, we are sooo excited :) That will take my mind of all the thinks what can go wrong lol :) I always think of worst... just have to learn to take one day at the time ;)

Sending you all ladies lods lods baby dust and lods lods positive vibes!!!

Lods of Love

Nikolina

Nikolina no I decided not to bbt this month, I kept forgetting to do it, I do have a question how long does hcg stay in the blood after a cp? Im trying crystal healing and reki this month as well as loads of vitamins just want to stay relaxed this month, bless ya hun glad that your thinking positively this cycle too hope this is your cycle
Carole x (mummyhillsdon)

Alice, yes, you're absolutely right. No harm in giving a higher dose. Yet, I have not heard back from them... I was so excited to break of from them and start at this new office. But they new office won't see me until I'm between 10-12 weeks. Which I know is *normal* but for someone who has had a loss thats a long time to wait... I'm supposed to be getting a call soon from that office to talk about my options (midwife vs OB) Which, because of proir c-sections they'll probably make me do OB. Hopefully when I talk to her I can tell her about the loss and maybe get in sooner. We'll see.

Oh Emmy... I don't even know if you will see this, but if you do come back to read the comments know that I wish I could just reach through my screen and give you the biggest hug!! I know how you feel about having 1 previous healthy pregnancy and birth and then it takes so long to conceive again only for loss to happen. That's how I felt too as my girls didn't really take much and this time took so much time and frustration. I do agree that you should see your doc and I really hope they will bring a lot of help to you!! I pray that soon we will see you back on here saying you are pregnant and going to have a happy and healthy 9 months. <3 I'm so sorry your marriage is struggling. TTC is hard on both the husband and the wife... maybe seek a fertility counselor too? I really am sending you many many hugs and hate seeing you in emotional pain! <3 <3 <3

Jada, thank you. I really am trying hard to find peace and just keep saying to myself "today I am pregnant." and try to enjoy each day regardless of what may come. Oh yes, I will stick around! I gotta keep up with you ladies waiting for your bfp's!! I wouldn't leave ya'll behind since ya'll have been here for me since day 1 of my loss. <3 I really appreciate everyone!! <3 I can't wait to hear more about your journey starting in September!! Are you not trying but not preventing until then or yes preventing? That's very soon though!! Fingers crossed that good things are coming your way!

Nikolina, yes, exactly! other woman say that their levels are so high like 40-80 and I'm like... uhhh mine is 10? How is this baby going to stay with my levels that low? I don't know.. I haven't had any spotting or bleeding... so I think well maybe I'm ok... but then I think.. well what if it's a blighted ovum or it's a missed miscarriage? ugh. I'm so nervous. Feeling ok, finally started getting bit of nausea yesterday at 6w1d. Had a bit today too. Kinda feeling gaggy but haven't thrown up yet thankfully. Yes! my scan is very soon! Will update below. :) Um, we'll probably start telling family after the scan and when I know there's a heartbeat. I think I'm going to tell my girls on thursday night. It's my daughters second birthday that day and we're having a party for her that day, so probably after everyone leaves I'm going to tell them if the ultrasound goes well. :) How're you? any ms for you yet? When are you telling family? Are you back home yet? Been to the doctor to get bloods done?

AFM, my ultrasound is scheduled for Wednesday. that's in 2 days and I'm a nervous wreck. I'm so scared that there won't be a baby with a beating heart. I think if I do see it I'm going to burst into tears. So if ya'll could say a quick prayer for me Wednesday morning around 11am pst I'd really appreciate it!! I'll update with the good or bad news as soon as I can. :) Hope everyone is doing well! <3

Hi ladies!

Missy, praying all is going well and that you will soon and very soon get the medical team you need and deserve! I am so happy you are planning to stick around :) I agree Sept will be here so soon! I will keep y'all posted for sure!!

Carole, hi! How are you feeling? Carole is my mom's middle name and today is her bday :) I know I should research it, but what is reki?

Nikolina, hey doll! How are you feeling? I can't wait to hear how you plan to share the news with your fams! I hope by now your neck is feeling better and the acne backs off. AF brought a bit of acne to me as well....witch! Ha ha.

Alice, how are you?! Any names?

Emmy, missing you!

AFM, AF is basically gone, thank goodness and hoping to only see her the next couple of months and then send her packing for awhile. Nikolina, I too am glad my body does seem to be doing what it's supposed to be. I am so incredibly happy for all of you and looking forward to me and Carole joining you ladies!

Jada

Hi sweet ladies!

I'm currently on the other side of the world for my job and I haven't had the time to respond properly, sorry for that.

Emmy... I understand... I respect your decision, and I'll be thinking of you... I hope that you'll soon get to a turning point... I'm sorry to hear you're struggling so much... I truly hope you find the answers you're searching for! Lots of love and a warm, long hug...!

Jada, lol, do you also believe girls are calmer? :-p That's the reason my husband was hoping for a girl :-p Sorry AF is giving you a hard time! Is she gone yet? I hope so! :-) Lol, you can never have enough practice ;-) September is getting so close! I really hope that you'll get lucky soon this time around!!! :-) I'll be crossing my fingers for you!!! :-)

Nikolina, we're thinking about names, but we haven't reached a consensus yet :-) How are you doing, hun? Do you still have that pain in your neck and sides? Are you going for an ultrasound in Latvia? Anything scheduled? I'm so excited!!! :-)

Carole, how long the HCG remains in your blood depends on how high your levels raised. When I had my CP (at 4w4d), my levels were only 33 at 4 weeks and were back to less than 1 at 5 weeks. I'm guessing it won't take more than a few weeks tops, but I'm not a doctor. By the time your AF is due, your levels should definitely be back to normal (unless off course you would be pregnant again! :-) ). Good luck!!!

Missytwoshoes, I'm sorry to hear you're having such a hard time finding satisfying medical assistance! I hope that they will indeed see you earlier, you can definitely ask for it! OMG, your scan is tomorrow!!!! Yaaaay!!!!! :-) I'll be sending you as many positive vibes as I can, I'll be thinking of you and hoping you'll get to see that little beanie and its cute heartbeat!!!! :-)

AFM, I've been feeling some movement lately, although I keep wondering whether it's not my bowels instead :-p Otherwise nothing much to report, busy times here :-s Missing my husband and hoping that the week is over soon ;-)

Lots of love to all of you!!!!

Alice