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9/13/2015

Since this is a journal I feel that I can write what ever I want.
I'll post the same thing I posted to a forum topic because it is my story for right now.
No matter what I am nervous. I am thinking every twitch and twinge and sharp poke that is going on in my uterus is [af] coming to get me. I am afraid that every cough or being too close to my cats litter box will cause yet another MC. I am afraid that since I have to find a new OBGYN that I won't like them as much as I liked ALL the staff that I had back home.
I don't care that I am a walking medicine cabinet or if I have to go through weekly progesterone shots and labs where I get poked constantly. If that's what it take I am ALL for it.
I WANT OUR BABY!!!!
I have 2 sisters that are pregnant right now and 2 of my best friends are pregnant right now. I want it to be OUR turn now!!!!! I don't care how selfish that sounds.

So... Here is this months story... (so far)
All month of August I have done everything to avoid talking and thinking about TTC. My husband and I just moved to a new state so I was thankfully preoccupied with moving. I have been on progesterone now for 2 months to lengthen my cycle because I O so late now after my D&C back in March. I was 11w2d when I found out I had MC'd. We were due September 25th 2015. My husband and I only [bd] 1 last month for my b-day the day before I O'd (August 30th).
September 11th I was sitting on the couch watching TV with my husband when I realized that it should about time for [af] to show her nasty face. But nothing... Lately I have been cramping for days before her but nothing. Out of nowhere I got up and took a test. I set my timer for 5 min and walked away.
Just before the alarm went off I went back to the bathroom to check. I didn't want my husband to know since I am a POAS addict, he just scowls at me.
I stared at the test with utter disbelieve. [bfp] !!!!!!!!!
It was faint but it was definitely there!!!
That was 12 DPO, I have taken a test every day since and I will be going in for labs hopefully tomorrow. Since I have a problem with low progesterone I a so afraid that the progesterone that I take nightly will still not be enough to keep me pregnant.
I don't want to be afraid of this pregnancy so I did tell 2 friend that know the struggles my DH and I have gone through but I am still worried.
I don't know how this happened but I am praying so hard for a sticky baby!!! Prayers for baby #1 to stick all the way!!!!![heart] [heart] [heart] [heart] [heart]

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