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Well I can't decide if I should actually take a test or not.
Normally I spot a couple of days before my period, and I haven't at all this time. However, my last period, I had heavy spotting for almost 4 days before my actual period started, which then lasted for 5 days (YAY lol) so I don't know if my body is just out of whack and it's making up for the extra bleeding last month by not starting on time this month, which means I'm more than likely not pregnant or if it could actually be a true possibility this time.
My husband and I have been together for almost 7 years, been married for almost 5 and we've had to watch our family and friends receive the very blessings we've been hoping and praying for.
We've been SO happy for all of them, but have undoubtedly had moments where we just couldn't understand "why them and not us?".
I don't want to waste a pregnancy test.
But it's also because I'm scared to get that negative and then get depressed. I've been a lot better at being hopeful lately. I know it's all God's timing and His will and I'll wait for Him, but sometimes it's hard. I know I can be strong, but sometimes it's facing that negative that can make it harder to keep faith and I don't want to lose hope.

I know I should probably wait a couple of days, maybe even wait a whole week to see, but there's also that excitement that makes it really hard not to run and take one right now lol.

what do you think?