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Feeling down

Here I am 10 dpo and still no BFP. I have wanted a child for as long as I could remember but I have only seriously started about 6 months ago. I watched all these videos on YouTube about women with PCOS who magically get pregnant without any help from a doctor and I thought that could be me but it wasn't the case. About a month ago I saw my OB/GYN who suggested that I start a cycle of Provera and Femara. I was already taking Glucophage so I was just told to continue taking that because it would help with my fertility. I visited my doctors to prepare for having a child. They switched all my medications to baby-safe ones and I started really eating right and taking care of myself. On Thursday I was admitted into the ER for a blood pressure of 156/119 and they did a beta test to see if I was pregnant. The doctor told me that my HCG level was <1 and there was NO WAY that I could be or become pregnant with levels that low. Mind you at this point I was only 6 dpo. I felt really sad because up until that point I felt so much hope ad then it was like the rug was pulled out from under me. Since that day I have taken multiple tests with what seemed like faint lines but I second guess them because I don't want to get my hopes up just to find out that I'm not pregnant. I am currently 10 dpo with no positive and I am so discouraged. I only have 2 days left in which the egg could actually implant. In my mind there are so many doubts. What if I'm not pregnant? Will I ever get pregnant? I feel like a failure.

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