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Ok ladies Iâ??m going to be real honest here, I might offend some but others can relate...But I could care less because I couldn't be more happy.. on 03-10-2010 in the middle of a 4 years relationship I was 6 weeks pregnant and decided it was not the right time for me to continue and termed the pregnancy considering all circumstances... 4 months later on 07-12-2010 I became pregnant again but the doctors told me I would have a miscarriage since the placenta was flat and termed the pregnancy... Since then it has been almost 2 years and to this day I am unable to forgive myself for making the decision I made, it is very hard living to know what could have been and the possibilities of wanting to have children in the future slim, it changes you mentally I havenâ??t been the same... My 4 year relationship ended on agreed terms last October, it just was not healthy for me to be in.. My ex was the only person Iâ??ve been with in over 5 years. I felt free for once and met a couple of people, lived my life.. Including someone I just met the beginning of February and the 2nd time we were intimate I knew that instant something was up... I know my body, it just so happened that it was my fertile week and the day we were intimate I ovulated.. like I said I knew instantly and with countless BFN's until I was 5 days late for my period and 19dpo I got a BFP yesterday... Estimated due date is 11-03-2012 and my babies first heart beat will be 03-10-2012 marking my 2 yr. from the first abortion I had, this has to mean something!!! God giving me a 2nd chance... Iâ??ve made up my mind and Iâ??m going about this alone with my families support. I havenâ??t been able to reach the babyâ??s father and I doubt I will get any support from him since it was just a fling.... My head is running all over the place with confusion, excitement everything... I hope and pray that I go full term and have a wonderful healthy baby..

Single mommy to be...