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12dpo here shattered! Not only did it come, ITs EARLY!

I cant believe it.ive been trying since dec last year but we gave it a reall good go this cycle.i was trying to test this morning and i saw the pink only it was the end of the tester.the last 3 menstral cycles I've been 35 32 then 30 day cycle.BUT THIS CYCLE CMON??PLEASE JUST WHEN I GOT READY FOR A RESULT.MY BLEEDING IS LIKE A HEAVY PERIOD.I JUST DONT GET IT.I HAD BD ALOT:)
IVE HAD TWEAKING WHITE LOTION CM LOW CP DREAMS ABOUT SEX NEW BEGINNING AND EVEN BEING PREGNANT.THE LAST DREAM WAS A NIGHTMARE.IVE FELT DIZZY LIGHTHEADED.CRAMPING ON 1 SIDE DULL ON N OFF FROM 6DPO TIL EVEN YESTERDAY AND LOTS OF OTHER STUFF.LAST CYCLE I WAS SO SURE ABOUT BEING PREGNANT AS I CRAMPED THE WHOKE WAY THROUGH AND IM USUALLY A 27 DAY GIRL SO MY AF WAS ALWAYS BEEN LATE (SINCE TTC)IT CANT BE IMPLANTATION BLEEDING. ITS MY AF IM SURE ITS TOO HEAVY AND ALL MY RESULTS ARE BFN.
I REALLY FEEL LIKE GIVING UP N NOT GOING THROUGH THE STRESS ANYMORE.ITS HEARTBREAKING WATCHING THE PREGNANCIES ALL AROUND.I'M SO JELOUS. NIT IN A SPITEFUL WAY.
I KNOW ITS JUST 3 MONTHS BUT I USED THE DIGITAL OPK AND I GOT THE PEAK STILL SMILEY EVERY MONTH.I BOUGHT A BBT CHART AND THERMOMETER YESTERDAY. I MAY HAVE JINKED MYSELF.I KNOW A WOMAN AROUND THE CORNER THAT SMOKES AND DRINKS SHE HAD A BABY AT 42 AND 45? I ONLY HAVE ONE FERTILITY ISSUE.AGE.CAN I STILL GET PREGNANT.?IS THIS FUSTRATION WRTH IT.I'M SECOND GUESSING EVERYTHING NOW.LOL EVEN MY DOCTOR IS PREGNANT SITTING OPPOSITE ME SAYING NO I DNT THINK I CAN HELP U AT YOUR AGE.SEE ME IN A YEAR.COMON.THATS RIDICULOUS. THATS A YEAR OLDER AND LESS OF A CHANCE I CANT AFFORD IVF.:(.I HATE TODAY.HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A BIG FAT BEUTIFUL PINK OR BLUE LINE ON YOUR TESTS AND BEST OF LUCK WITH ALL YOUR JOURNEYS INTO PARENTHOOD.XOXO

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