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Oh my gosh, YES, it would be awesome if we could know! I find myself either looking down and asking my belly "so...what...what's going on in there, huh? You there? Whatcha doing? You travelling up and stuff? You gonna implant sometime soon? You there??" OR trying to avoid even thinking about it and trying to occupy my mind on something else. It's so confusing :P

Luckily, my husband and I are going on a silent Easter retreat this afternoon up until Sunday afternoon. This means when I come back, I'll be 7DPO. I'm crossing my fingers for some implantation spotting or something! But yeah, at least during retreat my mind will - hopefully - be busy with other things. And then 5-7 more days and I can test...which freaks me out, but at least I might know something by then, ahhhh.

So far today I'm still cramping (mild cramps. Stronger ones come and go at some points during the day) and breasts are feeling tender if I press them lightly. I wish "baby dust" was an actual thing.. I'd prepare a baby dust bubble bath and chill in there reading a book all afternoon, hehe.

PS Christy, I have SO looked at those charts. I check and compare my symptoms everyday. I feel a little crazy :P

PPS I am so happy to have met you both too! Yay to waiting together! (Even if I'm going to disappear for a few days starting this afternoon...promise to come back!)

Morning Ladies :) (it's morning for me at least)

I woke up this morning feeling well... completely normal :( I had the polar [b]opposite[b] to vivid dreams last night. Cramps have picked up as I traveled to work but I don't know if I'm not making myself feel them. Feeling out already.

How are you guys? It is prob just you and I Christy, if so, how are you this morning/afternoon/evening? anything new?

Hi Emily,

It's officially morning here now, too :) 8 am. I just asked the internet it's saying it's around 1 pm for you :)

I always wake up in the morning looking for symptoms and they're not there. Early morning and then in the evening it seems like most of my symptoms vanish, and then I'm going...is it over already? I still have a hunch that something is going on this month, but after last month, I can't help but feel even if it is, it may not "stick."

Did you get dreams super early last time? Even before implantation? Your symptoms may have changed a little after what you went through...I feel like it has such a dramatic impact on our bodies.

I'm feeling a little crazy today and yesterday...I keep asking myself, do I really want another child? (I have a two year old at home.) It's so exhausting, etc., etc. Then I remember that last month, when I found out I was pregnant, I was ecstatic. There were no doubts in my mind. I hate how my mind can trick me sometimes.

Isn't this waiting game the worst? I am hoping, praying and wishing for this to be your month!

Christy

Good morning Christy :)

Yeah I'm just back from my lunch break :) I've had kind of pinching pains in what I can only imagine is my ovaries? weird eh??

Oh wow, a boy or girl? :) I think it's only normal (especially when you're tired) to think "am I mad wanting another baby?" but as you said when you found out you were pregnant you were so happy so that's what you really want. I really hope it happens for you this month, that would just be so exciting.

I can't really remember if I had the dreams this early but every night that I don't have them I'm less and less hopeful for this month. I hate the waiting game, and I hate that I think my mind might be playing tricks on me.

How are you feeling this morning? Any new symptoms?

Aw, your mind isn't playing tricks on you!! You're noticing genuine things happening and its next to impossible to know why or where they're coming from. And it's totally impossible to not pay attention to your body! It's the only clue we have about what may or may not be happening.

You're so right!! I know that I'm basically psyching myself out hoping that if I'm not getting pregnant, or if I do and something goes wrong, I'll somehow be less disappointed. I don't even think that's possible! Last night my husband told me to go ahead and think all the positive, crazy thoughts I want because in the end it will be less stressful on me either way. That was super sweet and made me feel at least a little better.

I've been cramping this morning too!! It's off an on -- pinching is a good way to describe it. Sometimes on one side or the other, and sometimes the whole area. What the heck is up with that? My breasts are a tender today, and I'm generally ridiculously hungry.

So, assuming I read my body right last time, I implanted six days after ovulation (the same as my first pregnancy with my little boy :). If I'm exactly right on when I ovulated, then Saturday would be my six day mark. I'm wondering what will happen -- will I notice the cramping again? Who knows if timeframes will be the same, but if I it doesn't happen that day or the day or two after I imagine I'll be pretty disappointed. But, I would so rather that than go through what happened the last time. Was your miscarriage painful? Mine was seriously uncomfortable. My husband pretty much had to take over kid and house duties while I just slept and sat with a heating pad on my tummy. I really hope and pray I don't go through that again. I don't know how I'd get the courage to try again. The stories on some of these boards just break my heart -- I think many of these women have far more courage than I do.

But, I have hope that whenever I get officially pregnant again -- this month or another time -- it will all work out and go very differently.

Do you ever still blame yourself for what happened? I can think of like 10 ways it was "my fault" -- things I did and shouldn't have, or things I should have done and didn't. They say that its so common, and there's nothing you could have done differently. If I do have another child, will I get over this? I can't believe the affect its had on me. And I don't know exactly how to move on.

I hope that you are in a much better place that I am! I hope you trust your body and instincts and just enjoy this!! You so deserve it. Here's to hoping this will be the month for both of us, and that we can enjoy it as much as possible!

It's still something that makes me sad, and it's something that has, and continues to stress me out because I worry if I'll be able to get pregnant and have a healthy pregnancy. I worry that there might be something wrong with my body that I don't know about. The actual miscarriage for me was quite bad, I was sick for a few days, horrific cramps and lots of tears. I waited til I missed AF that month and then miscarried 9 days later :(

I often think "I would have a 3 month old baby now" or whatever but I think that's normal and I've just allowed myself to feel the pain and it still hurts but it's sort of become a pain I'm used to so it doesn't catch me out like it used to. I can talk about it now and I know it's not something I'll ever forget. I imagine it'll be like this for you but it's important to allow yourself to be upset about it and know that there was nothing you could do. It was NOT your fault. You need to try to block out those negative thoughts because they'll swallow you up.

Why does it take so damn long to implant ;) haha, I just wish that happened immediately (I am far too impatient)

Thank you for sharing your experience with me. Oh my goodness...that sounds just...no words. I'm so sorry it was such a painful experience, physically and emotionally :(

I know what you mean about worrying about your body. I have the same fears. You know, when I went to the doctor, she said that everything looked fine -- no structural or other issues revealed by the ultrasound. So then I was relieved. Then on the other hand, she said, "well you know, those eggs have been in there a long time (AKA you're old). This could happen again. But there's bound to be a few good ones in there." Wow, thanks. Also she said that she "wouldn't count this one" as a miscarriage. I thought, well, appreciate the perspective, but I think *I'll* count it.

So how are you feeling today? Of course, I woke up this morning with pretty much nothing to go on, as usual :) This waiting business really is the worst. I think Laura has the right idea...we should be on a retreat right now, too! :) My toddler is coming home from spending time with his grandma today so I'm looking forward to seeing him soon. Having him away for a few days was so nice I'm wondering if it's time for mommy to start working again. What are you up to today?

I'm so glad to hear that everything looked good but your doctor seemed somewhat insensitive, of course it counts.

This morning I really think I'm out cp is low and firm, I've had twinges all morning but no dreams and the cramps seem to be gone :( I don't have much to cling onto anymore.

How are you feeling? Anything different today?

Actually my symptoms are a little less today, myself. I'm still twingy as well, but the nausea and other stuff seems to have died down. If I don't implant tomorrow I'll definitely be wondering if I'm out this month, too.