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People and their opinions....

So lately I have been going through a rough time. It sucks to near the 5 year ttc mark. And ds has started asking more and more for a sibling.

I have been trying to keep it together, but sometimes it just all gets to much. Today while I was treating one of my patients they asked when I will have another because she still remember me being pregnant the first time. (please note I was seeing her in the maternity ward with her new baby.. which was already hard for me). So I politely tell her that I cannot have anymore kids, but that I am not here to discuss me, but to help her. So she looks at me and starts laughing and pointing at me. She tells me that I am lying and that I am just too scared. I dont look sick so I must just stop lying because there is nothing wrong with me...

I started tearing up, ended the session, took my stuff and wished her all the best and walked away so that she couldnt see that I was starting to cry.

wish I could tell her:
I know I might not look sick, but on the inside I am full on endo... and 5 lapscopes prove that.
I might not look sick, but then again, unbalanced hormones wont make me look sick
I might not look sick, but that doesnt mean that I ovulate regularly.
I might not look sick, But that doesnt mean that dh doesnt have sperm issues.
You might think I am scared, but its the one thing I long for most and one of the things I pray for every single day. I am so broken, and I am not half the person I used to be. But yeah..  please judge me from the outside..

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