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Learning to Cope

On June 11th my husband and I found out that we were expecting! I had experienced a regular period and had stopped bleeding when a day later I started spotting again. For me that is extremely out of the ordinary. On a whim I decided to go home and take a pregnancy test, fully expecting the outcome to read negative. After waiting five minutes and glancing down at the pregnancy test, I had the shock of my life. I screamed for my husband that there were two lines and then promptly decided to take another test, one that was more sensitive. There was a plus sign on that one! June 11th quickly became one of the best days of my life. Unfortunately I was still experiencing spotting and was also scared that something could be wrong. The very next morning I called my OBGYN and asked if she could order some blood work. After 3 blood draws, a rhogam shot, and a scheduled ultrasound it was determined that I was having a miscarriage. The next monday we had an appt with my OBGYN who was so sweet and explained there was nothing that I could do it was not my fault. I was scheduled to have blood work done again the following Monday to make sure my levels were dropping like they should. My husband and I were still so heartbroken and I was a mess. I had only known that I was carrying my sweet baby for 4 days before I found out that I was miscarrying. I am not sure if knowing for longer would have helped, or hurt more. The Tuesday after my Blood work I received a call from my OBGYN office. They needed a STAT ultrasound performed to see why my HCG levels were rising instead of dropping. Fear instantly set in as I could only expect the worse. Ectopic Pregnancy. The Dr hadnt even had to speak the words and I was terrified. I was already losing my baby, I didnt want to have to go through a surgery and recovery as it a constant reminder of your loss. After two ultrasounds and a repeat lab draw, my doctor told me I would need to have diagnostic surgery done to determine If I was having an ectopic pregnancy as they couldnt quite tell from the ultrasound. I woke up to finding out that I did have an Ectopcic Pregnancy. The last month has defenitely been a roller coaster of emotions for both my husband and I. I am so ready to start a family but I also am mourning the loss of my first child and so scared to start thi whole process again.

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