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10 DPO and Depressed

10 DPO today, and the test was negative. I'm trying to tell myself that maybe the dates are off. I have an app on my phone that tracks and gives me an estimate for ovulation, and it said May 2nd, but then it changed and said May 5th. So there's a possibility that I'm only 7 DPO instead of 10. But it's frustrating, not knowing exactly, and just waiting for my period to start and ruin it.

My breasts are achy today, tender. They were tingling and tender yesterday. But is that because of pregnancy? Or is it just a PMS thing, and my period will start, and I'll be disappointed all over again?

I'm so tired of getting my period each month, knowing, yet again, that I'm not pregnant. Watching these women around me get pregnant, sometimes with children they don't even want, and knowing we want this soooooo badly, but it's just not happening. Is it going to happen? Did we get lucky this first month, trying so seriously? Or am I just going to sit around watching everyone else get pregnant and knowing it'll never happen for me?

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