Posted by ellen.hna
God blessed us in our first year of marriage with a beautiful little girl. She was almost too easy to conceive! When we decided it was a good time to have another child we didn't think anything about difficulties, because our daughter was so easy. Boy, were we wrong! We did get pregnant in late August but lost that child at 5 weeks, then immediately got pregnant with baby #3 in end of September beginning of October. Only to lose that child at 9 weeks. 2 miscarriages in a row! It was devastating! After losing 2 babies in a row you start to question if you can ever carry children. If our daughter was a miracle. Our doctor couldn't tell us why or what happened. We couldn't understand why God would give us 2 children only to take them again. I still don't know why, BUT I do know I will for sure, 100% see them again in heaven! And for that I am so grateful!
My hubby and I still wanted another child, so once my cycle was back to normal we started trying again. I started keeping track of every symptom and change and anything. (It wasn't until the end of February that I found this site.) And every month we thought we were pregnant, because all my symptoms were the same as pregnancy. So I would take home test, only to be crushed every month. Lots of tears. We finally realized that it was not up to us, it was all up to God. We were going to keep trying, but totally let God have complete 100% control over our family.
This last cycle we used opk's. That seemed to help a lot. I had a general idea of when I ovulated, but to know the exact day or two really helps! The waiting was the hardest! the awful dreaded TTW! I started getting the same symptoms as every other month, then a few extra odd symptoms: nose bleeds, the weirdest cravings (apples dipped in peanut butter wrapped in cheese slices...) and way more weepy than normal. So Friday March 15th was the earliest I felt comfortable testing and as soon as I capped the test there it was!!! 2 BRIGHT PINK LINES!!!!!!! WE WERE PREGNANT!!!!! GOD BLESSED US WITH A CHILD!!!! God know's the best timing even if we don't. (In hien sight last year would have been so difficult with another child) God knows, and God provided the right timing. Hubby and I are so thankful and grateful!
I am only 4 weeks. Still very early, and very nervous that I might lose this child as well. That would make 3 miscarriages in a row, in a year. But I know that my child and I are in God's hands! My heart goes out to all the woman trying and all the woman who have lost their children! God has all things in His hands.
"For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition that I made to him." 1 Samuel 1:27
Added: Mar. 18, 2013