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Almost 40 (3 months away) 8 years trying.

For the past 8 years we have been actively, non actively, not, gave up, trying. During this time I have also dealt with some surgeries due to a VA doc mess up. We tested, IUI'd, medical scripts, herbal, this last month I even Steamed my Yoni... But here's the change this month we have a third party trying to help (sperm donor) I am 9DPO. from day 1 after O my breast hurt, stomach cramped. Heart burn.. Oh god the heartburn. Then yesterday 8dpo I had pink spoting. ( I wear a pad as AF gets close) later in the day I wiped brown. then this morning NOTHING. breast hurt way less. very gassy, and a feeling right in the middle of stomach. When I woke up this morning and felt the lack of symptoms I just bawled. I still feel like crying. Pad is clean no discharge at all. Still have some tummy cramps, not all in the same spot. I google stuff and I know its a bad Idea but I want this so darn bad. I just scared this isn't going to work or happen. We cant afford IVf, but I am sure on everything I spent so far I probably could have. I just need to vent, my husband dont understand and my 29/30 year old bestie just had twins. I just feel alone in my head. Thanks all.

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