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How things change

It is amazing how quickly you can become obsessive about all of this isn't it. I had my first semi-breakdown last week when I had got a positive OPK the night before and the next morning had been eager to get to work on baby making, only to find my husband wasn't really in the mood. Well I just broke down, through sobs tried to convey how stressful this whole thing is. You can't help but get caught up in it all. Checking this, testing that, recording it all and he has no idea. I honestly don't even know if he is aware of basic biology with this sort of thing.
Anyway I told him I was upset that he hadn't shown more interest in it all. I guess it is a bit like weddings, guys just assume that the 'women' are more interested and that they should stay out of it. Really we want your involvement, including here. I always worry that when the baby does eventually come he will go off to work and travel for work and leave me alone at home with it, which I absolutely don't want. He of course says that he will not do field work... at least for the first six months, but really I want him to be home more than that. I hate spending weeks at a time by myself, and a baby doesn't count as company.
Well this just sounds like a depressing entry. But anyway I am at 6dpo, the next few days are going to seem like an eternity. But if it comes back negative at least I have a month off till we can even try again and hopefully some of the craziness will pass... well at least go to rest for a little while :-)

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