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It has been a tough two weeks. The euphoria of getting a positive digital pregnancy test to the crashing emotional fall when I saw the two lines fade and knew it was all over. Blood test on the Monday showed an hcg level of 9 progesterone 25. By the Thursday it was 1. And then I started bleeding. Nothing like i've experienced before. Extremely heavy - not what I expected for such an early pregnancy loss. Made it all a lot harder. But we had to make a decision with this cycle pretty quick as we had been waiting to start our IUI. I had to book a baseline scan on day 2, so we decided to go for it!

I'm hoping what i've read everywhere that you are more fertile after a loss will help us conceive again. I knew we couldn't do it in September as we are away during crutial weeks. I feel emotionally ready to try, so £1250 lighter we have started.

Baseline scan on day 2 looked good. Started Letrozole for 5 days which I finished yesterday. Side effects so far is very swollen feet. Second scan booked for CD9. OPKs not positive yet (CD7) so I'm hoping they don't turn positive before Friday to give my follicles time to grow a bit.

Based on how they look will depend on when the IUI is scheduled for. Fingers crossed for early next week.

AND I've made a big resolve and promise to myself. I WILL NOT TEST EARLY! The only test I'm going to have is the blood test at the end if my AF hasn't turned up. And only then will I used a pregnancy test just to see those two lines. I've packed all my stockpiled tests away so I'm not tempted. I do not want to know if I'm pregnant just to lose it again. xxx