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So, apparantely the internship isn't when I thought it was. I thought it would be like april to june, but it's actually from the middle of january to the middle of march. But it doesn't change the fact that we need to take a break until october. I still want to graduate before a possible little one joins the family.

As for our little rabbit, we finally got her home this wednesday. It took us around 6-7 hours from the time we left until we got home. Our little Humla (Bumblebee if you translate it to english) wasn't the least bit stressed about it and she's been acclimating really quick. She's such a cutie!

Poppin' in to write a small update. First off, two months ago my doctor wanted me to take some blood samples to check my thyroid levels again. Well, my TSH has risen to 3.3 but my T4 remains stable around 10-11. Since it's still "within reference" (4.0) he won't do anything more than send me to check my levels again after 6 months, which will be in august. Unfortunately I'm rather convinced my TSH will continue to rise. It may sound odd, but I actually hope it rises just above 4.0 so that I may finally be able to get some help..

Secondly, I actually got a job! Since I don't graduate until june I will only work when I decide I have the time, which will be a few hours a week. When I finally graduate I'll work full time for almost a year and a half (until october 2021) when my contract ends. I really hope I'll be able to come off the pill in a few months, because I really don't like how they make me feel and now even my husband is displeased with them. They have totally removed my libido.. It's not that I don't enjoy it when we have sex, because I really do, but I don't feel the urge anymore like I used to. And it really sucks. So I'm looking forward to coming off them for more than one reason. I guess only time will tell when that will be.

Pandorica—wishing you all the best in your studies. Maybe your take-home baby will come just at the right time at the end of your internship. You are so strong, I know you’ll excell! I’ll miss you.

@Adoette - That's really sweet of you to say. I won't disappear completely though, I want to check on how all you other ladies are doing. I just won't be in here as often.

I think NTNP for a little while makes a lot of sense with your internship next spring. I hope you have a fantastic time loving on that new french lop!

Oh so cute! Enjoy your new furry babe!

So, I don't know what my body's up to this time. I should be expecting af any minute now, but my body isn't acting as usual. Normally I get cramps a few days before af, followed by bad skin (especially in my face), sore boobs, feeling cold and of course the usual spotting that arrives around 2 days prior to af. Today I'm approximately 15 dpo, but since I didn't track I could be a few days off. Well, it's 14 days since the day I had an extreme amount of eggwhite cm. So much that it totally soked my pants.. Either we had sex around 5-6 days prior to ovulation, or 1-2 days after. None of the days were when I had ewcm. About 4 days ago I noticed my cm started to get a tiny hint of pink and I knew that I would start spotting the next day. It usually starts with a day of light pink spotting, that turns into a day or two of brown spotting until af arrives. Today is day 3 with only pink spotting. And that's the only sign that af I have right now that af would be on her way.

I've taken a few tests, unfortunately with a brand that always seems to show a super faint line. That line has gotten a bit more noticable over the past 2 days and today I could see it clearly, albeit faint. I still feel like it's an evap since we didn't bd around ovulation at all. But at the same time I can't help but think - "what if". I'll give it a few more days to see if af shows up, and I would be surprised if she didn't, and then I'll try with a different brand this weekend.

Here's what the line looked like this morning, with a pretty diluted urine I might add.

Sorry, forgot to zoom in a bit.

Seems like my gut feeling about that test were right, it was most likely an evap. Took another one, although with a really short hold, and it was negative for sure. Still waiting for af to arrive, surprised it hasn't yet. This is day 4 with spotting, so if af doesn't arrive today this will be my only cycle, out of 31, that have had more than 3 days of spotting before af arrives. I've only had 5 other cycles were I spotted 3 days, all others have been 2 or less days. As of right now, I'd rather have af show up, because with all these days of spotting and a quiestionable evap my mind goes to an ectopic. Clearly af is preferred in that case. Hopefully she arrives today so that I can leave this weird cycle behind me.

Af finally arrived today and I actually feel really relieved. My husband and I have talked a bit and we both think that right now wouldn't be a good time to get pregnant. I only have less then a year before I graduate and I would like to work at least a little while before having another child. And my husband is in a bad place emotionally due to his work. He are trying to find another job and have also applied for school. So my brain tells me that we need to take a serious break from TTC, even though my heart tells me otherwise. But sometimes you just can't listen to your heart only, especially with something so important as adding a child to your family. Which means monday morning I'll call the midwife's office to set up an appointment for birth control. At least for a few months and then we can have a look at were we are in life then. Because I know I want another child, but not right now. My family are more important than someone that doesn't even exist yet.

As far as contraceptive goes, I'll have to talk to the midwife and see which option are best for me. Never in hell will I try another IUD! Not only did my previous IUD cause cysts (that sometimes ruptured), the strings also didn't stay in place and actually started to attach itself to my uterus walls.. I'm thinking if trying the contraceptive patch, but we'll see what we come up with.