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I’m really depressed, if this cycle is a bust (which I’m sure it is) hubby is away all next month so there’ll be no 2019 baby for me ;( the day I had my son last year I KNEW I wanted a 2019 baby, I just feel like the stupid military is ruining my life, me and my son barely see him as it is and now they’re taking away our ability to extend our family it’s just frustrating

Well for me it is probably for the best that I'm not preg. No not probably it is definitely for the best. Part of me wanted to be anyway but after two days of trying to accept it i'm ready to. My husband left me on Wednesday morning. He said he was not in love with me anymore and has fallen for his friend at work. They are moving in together. This is obviously my last cycle waiting to test. I wish he hadn't kept me in the dark and let us try for another baby. This has been a horrible 14 cycles trying for a baby I thought we both desperately wanted. I'm an idiot. I really didn't see this coming at all. I've still been temping and tracking as a distraction but i'm barely sleeping so my chart is inaccurate, i tested this morning and it is a bfn so I think it is likely not going to be a pregnant cycle. I hope one day I meet my real soul mate. I am glad that I have my beautiful daughters to help me through this. They are wonderful. I am getting full custody and at the moment feel like i'm in a haze but i'm managing to keep it together for them

@Matarikigreen I'm so sorry hun!!! I'm so sad to read your post and i hope you are able to heal from this experience. Stick with us for the TWW and we will all still support each other! I'm really really sorry for you. Hugs...

@Mat omg im SO sorry to hear this :( how awful of your husband to betray you like that, I'm glad you have your daughters, and if you ever need an internet stranger to talk to feel free to message me anytime!

@Mata I’m am furious for you! Who does that? It’s one thing to fall in and out of love, but to actively try for more children when you’re planning on leaving? You have your girls, they’re always there so you have each other. You’ll be alright <3

Thanks ladies. Honestly i'm just mad that he lead me on with the ttc thing. He has been seeing her for ages but said oh you wanted another baby and I didn't want to upset you so thought it would be ok if we co parent raised the kids. I was still going to come to the birth. What an asshole. He and I have had some serious rough patches in the past and I once left him and told him to grow up or lose us. He seemed to really come right and we had been been seemingly happy for a long time. Turns out he was happy with someone else. Deep down i've prepared for it not working out forever because of the rough patches. I'm surprised by how ok i'm feeling. If anything I'm desperate to look after myself and become so happy he regrets letting us go lol. I'm never ever taking him back no matter what. I know the hoe he has been seeing. She will chew him up and spit him out. She doesn't have children so her body is amazing and she is younger but he is a fool to think she is a better option than his wife and kids. I pity him really. He is going to end up lonely and i'll likely end up meeting someone lovely in a few years. I love my husband but most definitely feel that our love changed to become more platonic over time. At least I was loyal ffs. I love my kids and don't regret making them but how could he allow us to ttc and be planning to leave. It feels really evil and cruel to me!

@Matarikigreen I am so sorry you have to go through this...
@all my husband is taking his SA today to see if there is progression...the result maybe on monday...I can't wait...

@And good luck!! Any update on the spotting?

As for me, .20 temp drop today at 9dpo, getting pre AF cramps which is due Monday and still really upset that husband is away all next cycle ???? I tried to convince myself I could see something on today’s test but I know it’s just a shadow from me holding it every way and in every light. I was so tempted to use a FRER but I know AF is on her way - the bitch

@beck Is AF but is not much last month I had 3 days, this month I am CD 3 And is not much. I used to finsh a whole pack of tamps but this time only 3~4 of it. Don t know what to think

@beck I always said there’s no way I could be a military wife. You are much stronger than I am. I’m sorry this has been a hard and lonely road for you.
@Matarik I am so sorry you are going through such a horrible ordeal. After my experience, I’m glad you found out now. My ex BEGGED me for a child. I finally gave in, and that’s where my three year old came from. I found out he was cheating when she was only 3 months old. Guys are snakes. I hope you can find peace of mind and get some better rest. Today is a new day!