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Just need to ramble

So I’m just waiting like most of you. Summary
In August I both welcomed and said goodbye to my precious angel. We suffered a MMC and at the time of discovering we were expecting I wasn’t so excited. I have three beautiful daughters already. However the excitement grew. Each scan I seen my precious little girl growing! Unexpectedly August 10 2018 I heard the news she no longer had a heartbeat. August 16, 2018 we delivered (kinda) Cherish. Since then I have felt so incredibly empty and we started trying once cleared. I know it sounds silly but this is officially month two. So IF we were successful it would put our due date August 23 2018. However being we had three c-sections preciously we would have an additional and that itself can put it on Cherish’s birthday. I so desperately want this. Going to my daughters grave side on Halloween then Thanksgiving (and many times in between) I dug a small hole and inserted a baby bottle. I wrote “message in a bottle” on it. Each time I go visit her I beg her to help mommy. A baby will never ever replace her however a baby would be a small piece of her given back to me. Gosh I’m sorry but to whoever reads this thank you. As I typed this my tears are flowing. Just sometimes it’s nice to have a stranger who has been there and gone through what we have is completely amazing. So just by reading my post you have given me strength. God bless you all and may he give you what we are all on this site trying to achieve xoxo

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