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Long time..

It's been awhile. Finally opened this website back up on my pc so I can track my cycles before I head to try out IVF (hopefully) in a few months. My last journal entry I was pregnant. Right after that I found that my number was decreasing, a month after that, I found out that my number had increased. A few days later, I was bleeding internally from a ruptured ectopic. They took both tubes. I am now infertile permanently. It was tough to adjust to for a few. No more positive pregnancy tests, no more thrill and excitement and fear after finding out you have conceived... I was distraught inside my head, but I was able to keep it there, thanks be to God. I am planning on having mini IVF in the next 2 months if God is willing.. I have 2 thousand saved and will need three thousand more. It has been the hardest few months. I lost both my tubes on the day before my birthday and didn't even know until after the surgery that they took them both. It was an ectopic that no one knew existed and my belly was filled with blood. I am still to this day so grateful to God that He allowed me to not break down in front of anyone. That tops as the hardest day of my life. I pray I can save enough to try to have a baby the only way left to me..

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