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April has always been a BAD BAD month!

Lawd....please give me something good to remember in April, something to celebrate in years to come. Please let me remember April for something other than my mother's passing, or her birthday, or a pending mother's day. Every April for the past 11 years I have a few dates that stick out in my mind. The day in April that I answered my door to a police officer who informed me that my mother was in the neuro-ICU. The day that we laid her to rest, and her birthday. I have tried to find ways to cope with it every year. Last year was the first time that I paid a visit to her grave. It is about a 2 hour drive since we buried her in the children's cemetary at the orphanage where she was raised and later went back to become a house mother for a house of girls. My mother was angry at me that year. She was upset that I wasn't bringing her granddaughter to visit her on her birthday. She didn't know that I had already bought a gift and was planning to spend my first Mother's day with her. I never got to give it to her. This year I would love to look to heaven an talk to her about another grandchild. Although unlikely, I would love to get a BFP on April 23rd.

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