Anyone late 30's and up trying to conceive again? :) Pt.2
Part 2 of the original "Anyone 38 and higher trying to conceive again? :)" thread started in Feb.
Here's part one of the thread:
327 Replies • 5 years ago
Sadly, I am still here...
looks like had another very early mc last cycle
last cycle I Ov-ed early on CD 11, and AF came on CD 21; second day of AF suddenly start being abnormally heavy, overnight pad didn't last for 20 min., so I went to emergency, blood test found small (but more than 10) HSg so...but bleeding stopped, next day everything was ok except my emotional state...I have to admit that I didn't recover from previous mc and another one put me even more down - I am still struggling to being ok emotionally and control excessive crying..so considering my emotional state I don't have any expectation fot this cycle
cd 9, approaching O (have no idea when to expect it) so I started opk earlier,
we also bd a lot recently not for conceiving purposes but because it makes me feel better and helps me to forget my sorrows
lisserb, how are you? do you think you've recovered after loss?
5 years ago
im nearly 39 and ttc i have 1 daughter aged 11 and 2 step sons that are my partners...we decide last year to try for our own baby had a miscarriage a few months ago but suffer from hughes syndrome..its a condition to do w ith clotting of the blood so it was a big decision to go for it again nearly finished my AF which was a chemical pregnancy ...so fingers crossed for our own baby soon :0)
5 years ago
I'm so sorry Esperenza. Big Hugs.
I am being really philosophical about my loss, but I think another one on right on top of the last would be a very bitter pill to swallow, and would not help with my emotional state either. I'm so sorry you have had to go through this again, right back to back with the other one.
I'm doing okay. I'm moving forward because that is the only way I can go. I have to look at it as though my life is no different now than it was on February 2nd when I did the IUI. My day to day life has not changed, my future has not changed, and my plans for moving forward have only slightly altered. I still get sad when I think about what could have been, and I allow myself a few minutes of that time then I choose to put my chin up and keep on going. I have to do that for me. I can't let myself sit in the grief, though I definitely still do have my times of grieving.
I think having another loss so soon though, would be very difficult to pull out of. Take time to grieve Esperenza. Sending you thoughts and hugs.
5 years ago • Post starter
I am 38, DH is almost 40 (sunday!) and we ae ttc our second together. We each came into the marriage with 3 kids from our first marriages. Our dd is 7. The other children are 21, 21, 19, 19, 16, and 10.
Some think we are crazy for "starting over" but I don't let it get to me- its my life.
Currently, I am 3dpo on my first medicatyed cycle ever. We had a loss at 12w and it really messed up my system. I took clomid 100mg 3-7, repronex d10, and a hcg trgger shot d11. I released three (!) follicles, and we are hoping one takes. I'm anxious for May 5 to get here so 'i can test- although I don't know if I can wait that long, but I am afraid of the false positive.
5 years ago
So sad to hear about your losses lisserb, Esperanza and nipplz. I hope that you get to post your BFPs soon in this new thread. At least we got really good pregnancy vibes from all the BFPs coming in.
For me, this is our 12th cycle TTC. I am in the middle of stimulation for our 3rd ICSI attempt. I think this is our last attempt as we are all out of povket using up my partner's savings. Last option would be donor egg, but my son is from a previous relationship and I would really, really want him to have at least a half-sibling...
I guess, I am the oldest of the "fine wine ladies". I know my time to have a baby is almost up (or may be already :( ). I am turning 43 in 3 months.
Hope to see everyone here in the new thread and of course some new TTC buddies, too!!
5 years ago
Hello ladies, just popping in to give you the update........
Looks to be another singleton for us! To be honest, I'm relieved. So many things involved that say it's better for us all the way around. But things look to be going swimmingly! 147bpm & measures right to date! I go back in 2 weeks. Aaaaaaand now I can exhale
Keeping you all in my thoughts & prayers. For those of you who have had losses, I've been there, there is always hope! It's such a personal journey. for us we know this will be our last shot, regardless of the outcome. so we'll just keep the praying going!!!
For the rest (and for all) here's an official screen "belly rub" hoping to spread some pregger vibes!!!
5 years ago
I do not know where to start. I have so very much to say.
I have had 4 or 5 miscarriages. All but one of them at 5 weeks or less. I may now, as in right this minute, be having a 6th. I hope not but I came home from dropping the kids at school to find pink cm when I wipe. Still hoping for a sticky bean! I have never spotted before with a pregnancy. Dh still thinks I am pregnant. He says I still smell pregnant and not like AF at all. (He has a nose like a bloodhound and could tell by smell when I became pregnant a few years ago. We lost that baby at 8 weeks.)
My first miscarriage was the most devastating and the most uplifting and transformative experience of my life.
My DS was still nursing and my cycle had not returned as yet when I realized that I was pregnant again. I took a hpt around 11dpo and it was a BFP. A week later the gnarliest AF came around and that is when the docs explained early m/c to me.
I literally tore at my hair and wailed to the sky. I was inconsolable and then sometime in the afternoon, after my wasband took DS out of the house to escape me I had an...experience.
It was my DD's "spirit". She told me that something hadn't been right with the pregnancy, that she loved me and that she would be back to be with me and the family.
Talk about being gobsmacked! I had never had any kind of experience like that before but I was left with such a feeling of peace and love and goodness that it really lifted my spirits and gave me an unshakeable belief that all was well and all would be well and I would see my little girl.
After two more miscarriages, I finally had that sticky bean and 9 months later, I gave birth to the little girl I had been waiting for.
Today's acupuncture appointment:
As you might imagine, after this morning's continued flow of pink cm, I had my panties in a twist to such as extent that I begged my dh to stick with me for the day as we worked from home. He has been such a rock of stability for me of late and I am so thrilled that the closeness we have developed through our ttc journey has opened my eyes so I better appreciate this side of him.
Last week's acupuncture treatment had left me feeling jittery and disorganized. I didn't want a repeat of that experience and was prepared to make this my last appointment if there was a repeat.
O. M. G!
I again had an amazing, self-empowering and transformative experience today on the treatment table.
Last week's problem is that I had a needle in place that I did not need. That happened again today, but this time I knew enough to speak up about it. When the dr first started applying the needles I felt this incredible upwelling of flow moving through, above and across my body. But then he put a needle in a place that shut all of that flow down, making me feel dead rather than alive inside.
When I mentioned this to him, he removed the offending needle and the shifting flow started up again. It was nearly overwhelming, almost stifling and then I realized...I realized I needed to stop standing in my own way in my ttc journey. Too much obsessing, too much worrying about things which aren't important, not enough trusting myself and my inner wisdom and very little taking care of myself in the ways that need to happen, first for my own growth and well-being and second, in order to conceive.
See, even though I am eating well, taking prenatals and supplements, doing acupuncture, etc. I continue to let small things upset me and focus on matters which can either take care of themselves or aren't that important in the scheme of growing my family.
And as I found these insights, I realized there were some important guide posts or principles or ideas that I wanted both in my life and for this coming baby:
And as I repeated these ideas to myself, I could feel the flow move from stifling, drowning and choking me to sinking into my bones, my cells and my self. And I felt an amazing, pervasive sense of rightness and that all would be well and even my womb stopped feeling like it was at war with me and possibly miscarrying to feeling like one of the best parts of me and that it was ticking along great and...
I still carry that delicious sense that all is right in the world. I know that a baby is coming to dh and I. And I am at peace in a way that I had no idea that I previously had been so far from.
I don't know if I am miscarrying right now. I may be. I may not be. What I do know is that great things are happening and I am so looking forward to continuing on this path.
I hope this helps someone,
5 years ago
To all y'all that have gone through the losses, I have been there is well. Allow yourself time to grieve your loss. I was an emotional wreck, with my last mc at 9wks, and one prior at 8 wks, and prior to that one at 20wks. It was hard for me to hold it together for my family's sake, but I needed that alone time as needed to just b alone, cry and grieve. When I realized that I needed to really truly put it all in God's hands, was when I finally had some peace. And 4 mths later we concieved our lil man who is going to be 1 on May 2. There is always hope.
torontochick, hey there now chin up, I'm right behind ya, 41 almost 42, and hubby is going to b 44 this fall.
airiesing CONGRATS, so happy for you that all looks good. I had been thinking of you and praying. :)
I think I have a very faint pos, everyone sees it here, (yes i just had to poas) I can see it but so afraid to let myself believe it as it is still early, and when I got my hopes up this early it was a CP, but oh lordy am I sicker than a dog, and hotter'n a goats butt in a pepper patch, among other symptoms. It seems different this time, like my other pregnancies.
5 years ago
ok if anyone can help, I would greatly appreciate any thoughts as I am totally confused! according to FF bbt chart I am 10 dpo and O'd on cd 7. Yesterday, it stated in observations that my chart was now possible triphasic. Now today FF is still saying all this and looks good, but when I put my temp in on the chart here, it changed my O day to cd 15 and that I am 3 dpo. Which one to do I go by or just is it just a wait and see if AF shows her ugly face either on May 1st or May 8th? This is only my 2nd cycle charting so this has me rather confused.
I took another test and doesn't seem to b anything there this time. so a neg test today. but lots and lots of symptoms, uggghhh.
5 years ago
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