Posted by Thesydkyd
This story is titled a yr of prayer, but to be honest, it was also a yr of tears.
My husband and i were married august 18 2012. We had planned to wait a yr before fulfilling our lifelong dream of becoming parents. My cycle has never been regular, so i was a little worried about my fertility from the start. I shared these fears with my hubby, and he was very understanding. I went off birth control a month before our wedding after being on it for 1 yr. We decided that october to start trying, and that was the month i stopped getting my period... And it wouldn't come back until June. At first, i thought maybe we succeeded on the first try! But after 3 weeks of daily negative hpts, i knew it was just my cycle being irregular again. I was very frustrated with my body. Missing a few periods wasn't new to me, but when i was finally ready to conceive, it's absence was an unwelcomed obstacle. After a few months, i was just praying i would get my period so i could at least get a handle on what my body was doing. I started taking supplements: vitex, myo-inositol, and vitamin d. Along with a lot of begging with God to heal whatever was wrong with me. I hated being the one "responsible" for our fertility struggles, even though i knew it wasn't my fault. It would be easy to give credit to myself for making a few lifestyle changes, but based on my history, it could only be bc God was hearing my heartfelt prayers. I saw a fertility dr at the beginning of june, did NOT take his advice to pump more artificial hormones into my body to jumpstart my period and ovulation, and had my period a week later. I fully expected to wait another 6 months before the next one, but since then, i have been regular! Since july, i have constantly browsed ttc forums, tracked ovulation, read into every little symptom during the tww when i thought it might even be possible i was pregnant, convinced each month that i was. Took millions of pregnancy tests, drank decaf coffee, and said goodbye to alcohol. This past month, it finally happened, and i know people will ask me what i did differently. The answer is, not much. In fact, i'm not even exactly sure when i ovulated bc i was away on a business trip with my hubby and forgot my ovulation tests. And i drank regular coffee each morning at the hotel we stayed in. I estimated my ovulation date based on my cervical fluid, and sure enough, 13 dpo, a bfp! We were also using preseed, just in case, which i think contributed to this success. At 9pm on 12 dpo i had a line so faint on an internet cheapie that i had to use a flashlight to see it. Then, i took another cheapie the next morning and had to wait about 15min, but the line was slightly darker. Ran to the store, grabbed a first response test, and it was still faint positive, but a lot clearer than the cheapies! I cannot even begin to describe the emotional ups and downs of this past yr, sometimes even wondering if i'll ever be pregnant. But God's timing is perfect, and that's all i can really say. Bc today is my hubby's bday, and he's about to get the best surprise gift ever!
Added: Nov. 6, 2013