Posted by wantababynow
It has been over two years but it still stings to think about my past experience. I feel fortunate that my hopes and dreams turned out the way I always wished, but it happened in an unexpected way. Here is my story.
I was happily married for two years. I was young and healthy and I did all of the right things prior to even considering having children. I never smoked, I never did drugs and I barely drank alcohol. I took pre-natal vitamins for three months prior to trying to conceive. Besides a prior appendectomy and an occasional cyst, I thought I would get pregnant immediately. One of my friends joked that my husband would probably breathe on me and I would get pregnant.
It took about 3-4 months for me to figure out the "right" time to try and conceive. Prior to all this research, I actually thought I could have unprotected sex at any time during the month and get pregnant....Whoops.
Well, I did get pregnant and it was and still is one of the most exciting moments of my life. I loved, loved, loved seeing that double line on the pregnancy test show up. I took so many tests just to assure myself. Our family was ecstatic and we were glowing with excitement.
When my first ultrasound came we were beaming. That is until the technician looked concerned and took too many pictures. I felt it in my gut and when people say it felt like they were punched in the stomach, I now know what that feeling is. We were told there was no heartbeat and worse than that I had a massive cyst the size of a cantelope that would need further evaluation. In one short morning all of my dreams were crushed.
I ended up needing a pretty extensive surgery but I was definitely looked out for by something greater. I was fortunate to find out my cyst was benign and I did not require any ovaries to be removed. It was a pretty sad few months, but I got pregnant soon after with our beautiful, beautiful daughter.
Sometimes it is difficult to think that I felt tortured for several months - whether finding out I first miscarried, needed surgery or trying to conceive again. Now when I look back it seems almost like a blink of an eye, but I know that it is the worst and longest periods of a woman's life when all she wants is to find out she is pregnant and for that pregnancy to be healthy.
For me, I was blessed by my miscarriage because I wouldn't have found out about a serious condition. And I wouldn't have my daughter. So, somehow it all worked out.
It may not seem like it during the times you are crying, begging, and stressing but it does work out. I promise.
Added: Jan. 25, 2015