Posted by yashinfan
I know this is going to sound dumb to the women who have been trying for years, but I am insane so bare with me.
I went off the pill after ten years in January. Month one we weren't trying as we had an awesome all-inclusive vacation in February. Stupidly, I thought that day one of your cycle is the first day after your period because I'd been on the pill for so long. So hubby and I really enjoyed our feb trip and my friend said to me, oh you are going to get pregnant because it is your most fertile week! I got so excited that I tested early, got bfn, but day of my expected period there was nothing! Cd35 and still no af, so I was convinced! However it ended up being my body adjusting to the change in hormones. Unfortunately for me, both my ttc buddies got pregnant their very first month of trying. Now I was devastated and felt alone.
So march I threw myself into it- bought opks to make sure I'd know how long my cycle would be, and made my hubby do it everyday for two weeks (not that he minded!). On cd25 out of nowhere, af appeared. I was so devastated because I'd done everything possible to make things work. The two days before af I was insanely tired, thought it was going to happen. At this point I was crying all the time. Trying to stay positive while it looked liked everyone else was pregnant.
This month I started feeling like I had a yeast infection. I was not happy as we were taking a trip to Hawaii which is a 15 hour plane ride. My husband bought me some canesta and i read that pregnant women shouldn't use it. So I thought ok, I'll take this test and it.l be negative so I can use this med. At five am I took the test in complete dark, turning the light on quickly just to check for the negative. To my complete shock there was a positive! I thought I messed up and did another brand and also got a positive. I started sobbing and my hubby thought I'd somehow hurt myself!
Anyway, the point is that no matter how stressed and sad and anxious this process was, it was worth it to see the bfp. I was an insane monster, my husband can attest to this. I know it was only four months but it felt like an eternity to me.
Baby dust to all! Don't give up!
Added: May 18, 2013