Posted by ericalee
I have been really hesitant to write a story in this section, for fear it would jinx my pregnancy; however, it is finally time for me to let go of the fear and just enjoy the fact that I am going to be a mom -- FINALLY!
My husband and I started trying in May 2012, following our wedding. Over the course of the next 26 months we would experience 5 losses. The furthest I ever made it was 7 weeks and most of my losses occurred around week 5. We did all of the testing out there that my OB and RE would do. I did acupuncture, took progesterone, aspirin, and prednisone as prescribed by my RE "just in case" and we still suffered losses after that. I knew this was no longer "bad luck" and the RE agreed. I did my research and was very suspicious my immune system had something to do with it, so with the support of all my doctors I set up an appt (3.5 mo wait - yikes!)with Dr. Kwak-Kim, a reproductive immunologist, in Chicago.
We ended up getting in 3 weeks early due to a cancellation and when I went for my appt I was about to ovulate. I had expected them to tell me that I would need to wait until I had been on their treatment for a while before we could try, but they told us to give it a go and shock of all shocks -- IT WORKED. On 10DPO I tested with FMU (although very diluted because I was up peeing all night from the prednisone) and it was a BFN. I was bummed, but didn't really expect to get pregnant. I couldn't stop my addiction for POAS there though -- I tested again once I had a 3 hr hold and HOLY CRAP -faint line. I immediately called the clinic then went to my OB's office for a beta.
The next few weeks I was extremely stressed. Between not hearing back very quickly from the doc's office in Chicago about new meds and a beta that didn't double... I was prepared to miscarry again. BUT I didn't. I went to Chicago for my 6w ultrasound and there was a heartbeat!! and again at 7w, 8w, 9w, etc... I was BLOWN AWAY.
I am happy to report that I am now 16 weeks pregnant and everything looks GREAT. Because of my immune system issues I am taking lovenox, prednisone, and receiving IVIG infusions. I honestly don't think I would be where I am without the help of Dr. KK and her amazing staff. It definitely wasn't an easy road to get where I am today and there are days when I am so tired of injecting myself or taking pills or driving 5+ hours round trip each week to get infusions that it does get to me. But even on those tough days I remember that it will all be worth it in the end. We are going to have our miracle baby. :)
I would also like to tell everyone that just because you do not have symptoms during your TWW it does NOT mean you're not pregnant because the ONLY symptom I had was tender boobs, which I have when I get my period anyway. I never had IB or cramps associated with implantation. I also did not have any of the early pregnancy symptoms they tell you about either. There have been 3 days where I felt like I had a hangover. where my stomach just felt sour. But I would eat something and then it would be fine. This also wasn't until like 10 weeks along! I never had a stitch of morning sickness, no super sensitive sense of smell, no metal taste in my mouth, no pronounced veins, no bleeding gums, etc. etc. etc. I convinced myself because I didn't have these symptoms that clearly I was miscarrying. My poor husband. He played the role of a therapist a lot. So don't count yourself out if you don't have a lot of symptoms!
To everyone still trying -- you can do it! Don't give up! When you're sick of the planned intercourse, meds, temps, etc etc etc... don't give up hope! It'll happen. It might not be the "we had too much fun one time and had unprotected sex and OMG I'm pregnant" story, but it doesn't matter if you timed it perfectly, it took 1 month or 30 months, if the baby was conceived in a lab or your bed... the end result will be the same â?? a baby!! :)
Added: Oct. 30, 2014