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Trying for #2 for 2 years

Hi all,
for our first born, he was a complete accident. We were actually in a long distance relationship for 5 years and it just happened back in 2011. I gave birth in April 2012 and I was 23 then.
Now I'm 28 and we have been trying for the past 2 years.
In the first year I didn't think much about it, wasn't really calculating my ovulation days etc. Because of course I thought, well, I had one baby so I guess I can have another. I just mentally calculated when I would be ovulating but we'd do it every week at least once or twice. And nothing.
For this past year, I was diligent with my cycles, bought ovulation kits, and still nothing. Went to see a doctor and she gave me pills to regulate my cycles and I seem to be on a regular 5 week cycle. She did an internal ultrasound and we saw that I had an egg right there. I was ovulating! and I remember i was 4 days past the last day of my period. So it was very strange to me to ovulate so quickly after my period ended. So I guess my ovulation is kind of whacked as well. She gave me pills for 3 cycles and i'm on my last cycle now.
My period is supposed to be here now but it isn't here yet.
I'm not confident because I feel like it will come due to so many months of disappointments. I'm waiting another 2 weeks to take a test.
I know I already have a son and I know I have more than I could ask for. But a part of me doesn't feel complete.
And I hate going on instagram and facebook because almost everyone I know is giving birth and getting pregnant again with their 2nd 3rd 4th.. It just seems so easy for them(even though I may not know what they may have gone through to get there) I can't help but feel jealous and envy and I feel so bad. I guess at this age is just the age to be conceiving.
I've been reading a lot about secondary infertility, my DH says he'll get tested next month. My DH has been diligently going to the gym and working out for the past 2 years as well. During that time he's been taking protein shakes and supplements but I definitely know no steroids at all. I'm wondering if the shakes and supplements could have something in them to cause a low sperm count or something.
Anyways I just needed a place to vent. I was extremely upset yesterday because I saw someone I know announce her pregnancy, and i just felt so :( anyways. Good luck to everyone else here though! :)

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