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I have my story in my journal. It's a long and difficult journey in 19 married and have been ttc for 1 year and 3 months. Last week I thought we had finally done it to only have found out it was ectopic and Friday had internal bleeding and to undergo surgery to take my baby and half of my left fallopian tube. I can relate so well but have only done conceive easy pills. First two months are free and then they send you two month supply's for about 100$ after that.

Hey shyannstewart.

I went and looked at your journal, and I am sorry to hear what you are going through! I too had an ectopic a few years back. There is hope though as I haven't had an ectopic since and I did have my baby girl since! So hold onto hope! Don't ever let go of it!

I have also tried lots of natural stuff like concieveeasy and all the weird stand on your head type of suggestions. Some worked and were beneficial for me, others not so much :)

I have never gotten pregnant without being on fertility meds. I started my doctoring 1 year after trying to concieve and it was a long 2 years after that until my baby girl came.

Now I am hoping again! Already 8 months in working on #2.

Hello honey! I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know how hard it is for you. I'm sorry you have to go through such thing. My husband and I were TTC for 9 years. I've got pregnant but because of my health condition(glomerulonephritis) I couldn't carry the whole pregnancy and give birth. There is nothing I can do to cure my kidneys to the point when I can carry my baby and have a healthy delivery. During these 9 years there were so many times when I wanted to give up. I even visited specialists who could help me to cope with the situation. Well it helped a bit, but after my loss I was so depressed I wanted to quit trying and live childless life. But I just can't imagine my life without children. I know exactly what you're talking about. Long TTC, my disease and infertility change me completely. Now I'm a different person then I was before. To be honest I don't like a person I became. I used to be very positive, funny. I loved life and I was always trying to find good side in everything. Now I am sad, upset, depressed, stressed and disappointed. I can't even say I live my life. I exist and wait for miracle to come into my life. I think "when I will have a child everything will change" or "I will be happy when I become mother”. Some people tell "find a distraction" or "enjoy every minute, everything is going like it's supposed to be" or "don't concentrate your whole life on infertility and then you will definitely get what you want". I don't think it works that way. At least for me it never worked. I should say now I feel a little bit better. The reason of it is that we found option which may help us to become parents. The idea of surrogacy came to our minds not so long ago. I feel much better knowing that there is a chance for us to have a baby. I'm only at the beginning of my journey. Actually it didn't even start yet. I do my best to find all information we will need in our journey. Did you think about options you can have in your situation? Maybe it's better to have a consultation with your doctor. He will probably advise you something or at least tell you what the exact reason of your infertility. You will know if you should continue trying for example ivf with your own eggs or maybe you should try donor eggs. Moreover there are still surrogacy and adoption left. I hope you will find the best option which will suit your situation. I wish you best of luck!

I am so sorry about your losses. I understand what you are talking about. I'm 32 and all my friends and all people I know are pregnant or having children. I was born without a uterus. There is no way for me to get pregnant. I chose surrogacy as an option. But this is not a short process. I'm happy now because I have something which gives me hope. At the same time each birthday announcement, each baby shower is very hard for me. When I see photos of my friends’ children on Facebook I feel like depression hugs me tightly. I really have no idea how to cope with it when you ttc for a long time or facing infertility. I really hope to start my journey after holidays. Maybe next year I will have a baby. I'm sure motherhood will change my life.