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Re-joined the site following miscarriage...

Hi,

I'm not even sure what I'm hoping to hear back. I guess I just need to put this down as I can't express it in everyday life.

If you look at my bio you see the journey me and my dh have been on to conceive a child.

After a long old struggle and lots of work, we finally got the news we'd been dreaming of.... you're pregnant. Even at the IVF follow up scan we see a gorgeous little heart beat and everything seemed just perfect.

However, we went along for a little sneak preview scan at 11wks 2days only to be told I'd suffered a delayed miscarriage. Anyone who has experienced this knows the following options are not pleasant....

I was booked in for a procedure to remove little one when a week later I ended up in an ambulance as I was having 'spontaneous labour'.... I'd never even heard of this.

Its now about 12 weeks and I am still in so much emotional pain.

I don't know if anyone else feels like this but I get so fed up of people saying 'its perfectly natural" and "it happens to most women" I know all that but it doesn't take away my pain (sorry if that sounds selfish!). Everyone around me is now just expecting me to get on with things and 'move past it'... I know thats the sensible healthy thing to do but it really isn't as easy as it sounds :)

I can't seem to move on. I keep thinking about how far along I would be. Every day I age I feel like I'm getting older and older and worrying about conception.

We have the option of another cycle of IVF but its not cheap and I am so scared of the whole concept now.

In general I can't seem to shake the sadness and sense of loss.

I know I'm not alone but I really feel like it.

Would appreciate any supportive words

Baby dust to all xx

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