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Hi there. We are on a similar timeframe to you. We started trying 2 years and 3 months ago. We had one miscarriage in April last year (at 10 weeks pregnant). Haven't got pregnant since. So for us, the getting pregnant is hard and the staying pregnant also doesn't seem to work. We have been under a fertility specialist for a while now. I did 7 cycles of clomid and then my husband's most recent SA came back really bad. So basically there is very little chance we could get pregnant without IVF with ICSI. We have an appointment in a couple of weeks time to sort out what happens next. It could be up to a year before we get to the top of the waiting list so although we are "trying" we are really just playing the waiting game.

I am sorry to hear about your losses. Do you know what causes it? We never found out what caused ours. Even saw a heartbeat at 7 weeks.

I'm so sorry for your struggle. This is not an easy road to walk on.

They have determined that all 5 were "bad luck". Just genetics not coming together correctly. My husband and I have been tested and we are genetically fine so we are not passing it on, they just thing when he and I come together, it's not forming correctly.

We had one tested and it confirmed that theory (baby #3). So far the longest we have gone is 9weeks (baby #4). We really thought that one was going to be the one because I normally miscarriage before 6.5 weeks. Dr's were so hopeful but in between ultrasounds from week 8 and week 10, the baby's heart stopped at 9weeks 1 day.

We are having my husband tested this month to make sure his swimmers are top notch before we try again. Then Im back on clomid. My dr really is hopeful that we can get pregnant and stay pregnant if we keep trying. Or our only other option is to do IVF with pre-implant genetic testing (a $25,000 procedure)

What about IUI?

That must be a weight off your mind knowing what is going wrong, but how frustrating that it it something you can't fix and have not control over!

We can't do IUI because of sperm motility issues. That's why we can't even do IVF. We have to do ICSI. Fortunately I will qualify for fully funded cycles (two). After that the costs are similar to what you describe. I hate the thought that we could get to that stage as it will seriously eat into the good work we have done on getting financially secure. Still, we will do what it takes to have a baby.

We are getting closer to the next AF!! Hubby has his semen analysis this morning, just to make sure his swimmers are in tip top shape.

I have been driving myself crazy, hate the waiting game.

Yesterday I had a particularly hard day. I was tortured by memories of my loss little one all night. I would just wake up with images of his ultrasounds in my mind. It lead for a very difficult day.

What have you been up to?

I am 9dpo today. I am not doing very well with the giving up hope of a pregnancy! I have incredibly sore breasts which started yesterday, and usually they only get sore much later in the TWW. Of course I know logically I am unlikely to be able to get pregnant, and this is my first cycle off clomid in a long time so of course things could be different from that! Just need to stay sane! I have been having a really difficult time emotionally in the past few weeks since my little sister had her baby. She got pregnant the first cycle off birth control. This happened a few weeks after our miscarriage. I am beginning to wonder if I will ever get over that. Sometimes it feels like the pain of loss is getting worse not better. It certainly doesn't help that everyone around me is having babies. I almost seriously keep suggesting that we run away together away from everyone. It is SUCH a tempting thought. I haven't even been able to have a conversation with my mother in weeks (normally talk at least once a week) because she is glowing with happiness over her first grandchild and it makes me cry inside (and sometimes outside) because my child should have been first. And I feel like such a failure and wonder if it will ever happen. I can't imagine having as many losses as you. I am not at all surprised you are haunted by memories!! I hope you get one to stick soon!!

5 days until our appointment for IVF discussions! I need to try and stay positive and look to the future and possibilities!

I hope the semen analysis goes well!! Keep me posted on the results!

From my mind to your finger tips. I know exactly how you feel with your mom. My brothers gf got accidentally pregnant when I was pregnant with baby #3. Mine passed and she went on to have my niece.

When the GF was pregnant she would call me jealous, when I would be like I dont really want to hear it because Ive lost so many and I just need my mom to be my mom.

For months my mother did nothing but talk about the baby. When I asked her to please focus on me because Im in pain from (at this point loss #4) she told me i was just jealous of the baby.

Ive stopped talking to her. She obviously doesnt understand the pain that miscarriages and infertility can cause. Im not jealous of my niece because im not jealous of my nephew (hes 5, husbands side). The only thing I long for is to see my niece and get to know her like I know my nephew, but we live 12 hours away so its a bit hard.

I always get my pregnancy symptoms right around 9dpo. I get sore bb, HEARTBURN and gas. I'm a mess in the first few weeks of pregnancy lol.

I hope this is it for you!

Hi ladies!
I'm sorry to hear abt ur loses, im 31 and hubby is 37, we have two boys we have been trying to conceive for the past two years, I must say this is the 1st tym we struggle to conceive for so long, I'm just using opk's for TTC, bt lately I'm finding it very difficult to even use dem, I just feel like giving up bt den again des another part of me dat just wanna go on, and I think dats de part I like,,,,, Hoping for a BFP for all of us soon!!!